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The Language of Spirit
My
husband and I were having a conversation. I had asked him to
please share with me the perspective of a group of people he had grown
up around. Him not agreeing with the perspective was already
known. If he had, we wouldn’t have been sitting there as husband
and wife having this conversation in the first place.
I
asked because I sought to understand. “What is going on with all
the running laps around the church? What is the purpose?
What is the meaning?”
I admit, the thoughts running through
my head weren’t very complimentary but I recognized them as judgments
of my own ignorance. There was no way I was relating such
undisciplined behavior as worshipful. I had been raised Catholic,
after all. Popping up out of my seat at an inappropriate moment
and running laps around the church during services would have
definitely been frowned upon at the very least. With
excommunication and exorcism as definite possibilities.
Yet,
in the church my husband grew up around, running laps during service
was actually one of the goals of the service. “Why?”
He went on to explain.
“The
belief is that running laps around the church is a sign that God has
entered you. It’s God that takes you over, thus you run around
the church.”
I bit my tongue. ‘God likes running in
circles?’ I thought to myself. There has to be more to it than
that. At least there’s the idea that God can be within, even it
if does express itself more like a kind of possession than communion.
“There’s more to it than just running laps, isn’t there?” I asked.
“Yes.
You can run in circles, you can jump up and down, or you can start
talking in tongues. If you ever want to get to Heaven, you have
to have talked in tongues.”
Work myself into a state of
mental and emotional imbalance, into an irrational frenzy, and call it
‘communing with God’? Definitely not something for me. Now
growing up as I did, I was familiar with conditions for entering
‘Heaven’. Catholic dogma is full of them. I had just
never heard of this one.
“I don’t understand. Would
you please help me? What is ‘talking in tongues’?” I was
familiar with the phrase and had my own understanding of its
meaning. I was seeking to understand what meaning others had
given it.
“Talking in tongues is speaking some sort of
language….’God’s Language’, the ‘Language of Spirit’. It sounds
like babbling.
“How do you know it isn’t?”
“Because there has to be a witness: someone who will testify that they understood what was said.”
“How
do you know it’s not a set up? A con game? With both the
witness and the one talking in tongues playing a con game on themselves
and the rest of the congregation witness to that?”
“You
don’t. It’s the belief to accept it on blind faith. Like
I’ve said, I never did it. It never happened to me. I never
experienced God entering me and causing me to jump up and start running
laps. Much less talk in tongues.
The belief is that
you have to be truly repentant and you can’t lie. Your Heart
knows when you’re lying. So if you’re not truly repentant, God
won’t enter you, causing you to run laps and talk in tongues. I
wasn’t properly ‘repentant’ when it came to wearing short sleeves and
other ‘flashy’ clothes.”
“This, I was familiar with, at
least a little. There’s “repentance” in the form of “Confession”
and “Penance” in Catholicism. Thinking of going to Confession on
Saturday, receiving Communion on Sunday, then back to business as usual
Monday through Friday, I asked, “How many times can you do it?”
Now it was his turn to look puzzled. “How many times!?”
“Yes.
Like how many times can you repent your ways? You know how we
are. We can really, truly want to repent, want to change our
ways. But old habits are hard to break. We can stumble even
with the best of intentions. We can truly feel sorry.
Desperately sorry. And genuinely want change.”
“Ahhhh…but are we sorry we did it or sorry we got caught?”
“I
see. We’re sorry for the consequences. We’re sorry we’ve
got a Guilty conscience. Sorry we’re Guilty. Not
necessarily sorry we did it.”
“Like I said, we can’t lie to
our Hearts. True Repentance is genuinely feeling regret and
desire to change. Once, is generally all it takes.”
I
sat and pondered it a moment. I started repeating back what I had
understood, checking to see if I had comprehended. This parroting
exercise is something I learned long ago. It helps avoid
misunderstandings. Sometimes I only think I understand, when
really, I don’t or haven’t. I had been taking notes whenever I
heard a buzzword or phrase. I can literally feel significance and
importance. It’s a sense.
“True Repentance”, as in genuinely desiring change?”
“Yes.”
“’Speaking in tongues’ meaning speaking the ‘Language of God’, the Language of Spirit’?”
“Yes. Like fire letters or something but spoken.”
“But not necessarily understood?”
“Right.”
I spoke up.
“Let me share with you my conception.
The
Language of God, the Language of Spirit, has to have an essential
ingredient. The Language will have a certain tone, a certain
quality of ‘Absolute Being’ about it. Equanimity.
Equality. Something common to one and All. All
embracing. All pervasive. All inclusive. That means
capable of being experienced by every One. ALL of Us. Not
just some. the chosen.
I have problems with the
concept of ‘the chosen’. Because there is implied a ‘those who
are Not’. That’s not equal. Can’t be ‘All That Is’ and ‘All
Embracing’, so long as there is a ‘them that’s Not’.
It
doesn’t make any sense…a ‘limited unlimited’. It’s
silly. So I object to the idea on Principle alone. If
it’s an idea of exclusion and limitation, it’s not an idea coming from
any kind of ‘Absolute Being’ level of awareness. No matter how
many of Us potentates and self appointed religious ‘authorities’ claim
it is.
Unity has a feel to it. An Essence. It’s Whole and Sum. It’s an ALL kind of thing.
The
Language of God, the Language of Spirit that we ALL know speaks in
tones of Unity. Spirit Unifies. There is One Spirit, One
‘Supreme’ or ‘Absolute’ Being. This Being-ness is communicated
through our Hearts. And I wrote this list:
The Essence of Unity
The Essence of Understanding
The Essence of Truth
The Essence of Faith
The Essence of Acceptance
The Essence of Tolerance
The Essence of Compassion
The Essence of Harmony
The Essence of Forgiveness
The Essence of Peace
Then
said, “this is just a few. I know what kind of man you are and,
according to my perspective and what I’ve witnessed, you’ve been
‘talking in tongues’ your whole life. Just didn’t know it.
There’s
an old saying: the only way to overlook the obvious is if we’re not
looking. I haven’t met a person yet, that didn’t express at least
one of these Essences. Every single One of us can and do ‘talk in
tongues’ every day.
According to my understanding, what a
Truly ‘repentant’ Heart seeks to change is the feeling of rejection
that comes with the judgment of ‘Guilty’. The remedy for this is
the understanding of the Essence of Forgiveness. As in all other
Essences of the Absolute, it’s Always ‘here’. Where ever and when
ever ‘here’ Is. It’s simply a matter of knowing the choice to
receive is Present.”
“Are these peptides?” he asked, a twinkle in his eye.
“I
guess we could call them perspectives that create peptides. We
have to be in our Ever Loving Mind to know the e-motions, the e-senses,
and the feel of it. If we don’t make sense, there will be nothing
to sense.
The beliefs we’ve had up to now,
regardless of what belief system we embrace, haven’t had much sense of
Unity in them. Inclusiveness. Equanimity.
Equality. Fairness. Justice. Universal in
scope. And most of all, Unconditionally Loving and Embracing.
They’ve
all been conditions of exclusivity. I call it line drawing.
Giving rise to all sorts of reasons for rejection. Every culture
has them. We call it ‘polarity’ and ‘duality’. I call it
‘Righteousness based on Wrongness’. There has to be a ‘not
chosen’ in order for there to be a ‘chosen’. Exaltation of some
at the negation of others. This is not Unity; it is the basis of
separation. There has to be delegated a ‘bad’, so the ‘good’ will
feel superior. There has to be a ‘not special’, for some to feel
‘special’.
This gives rise to the creation of a relationship
pattern within Humanity where one group, a ‘moral’ majority, literally
feeds off the lives of others like a bunch of ticks and leeches, giving
rise to codes of behavior that propagate, support and nurture,
repulsive qualities of character: supremacy, bias, prejudice and,
arrogance. Once we draw lines of separation, we have parts.
The moment we make parts, we create conflict.
While many of
Us ‘pray’ for Divine Justice, it doesn’t ever enter our minds that
reality is It. We reap as we sow. If we don’t like what
we’re reaping, then MAYBE it’s time to change what we sow. Our
behavior, fueled by our beliefs, is the source of all our conflicts,
suffering and woe. Our beliefs are self-destructive. The
sooner we realize it, the sooner we can change and, create different
results.
“People don’t like accountability.”
“I
know. It’s because issues of accountability and responsibility
are tied to beliefs in fault and blame. We don’t like fault
and we don’t like blame. It’s beliefs in these concepts that are
one of our veils. ‘Taking the rap’, ‘fault’ and ‘blame’ are all
‘children’ of judgment and condemnation. To condemn is to draw a
line and pronounce ‘Guilty.’ To reject it, whatever ‘it’ is.
My
desire and goal is Understanding and there’s no way I can accomplish
that if I start out with an attitude of trying to separate myself from
the experience. Labeling it a ‘sin’, or ‘evil’, or ‘bad karma’
for that matter, does precisely just that.
I insist, every
experience in Life and of Life is a Present. A Gift of the
Moment. If I fail to embrace it, whatever it is, however
unpleasant and unhappy it might very well be, then I have expressed my
own limitations when it comes to my Love of Life.
I
don’t look at anything as being ‘wrong’. There are simply
choices. With consequences and results. Psychological
consequences and psychological results. These consequences and
results are dictating how we relate to One Another. We haven’t
had Peace, genuine Peace on Our planet because We aren’t Peaceful
Beings. I’m looking at the choices we make and their
consequences, as an observer, like a fan watching a game.
Accepting everything. Tolerating everything. Embracing
everything. I Love Life that much.
I’m targeting
our beliefs and questioning our choices. Questioning if we truly
desire to continue making these same choices, after we Understand what
choices we’ve been making. I chose to change.
This is
where ‘knowledge’ of the Essences becomes essen-tial. Most
especially the Essence of Forgiveness. I treat our errors and
mistakes like oppsies and uh oh’s. Entirely Understandable and
Forgivable. I found this perspective makes a great deal of
difference when it comes to facing our issues and those matters that
weigh heavily on our Hearts. Responsibility and accountability
take the place of fault and blame. It’s how we transform
ourselves from a victim to empowered. Take back the Sovereignty
of our own lives.
If We weren’t so afraid of being
‘damned’ or labeled ‘bad’ or ‘evil’, we could actually make some
corrections. As it is, we’re too afraid to even look at the
psychological skeletons in our closets, limiting both our
self-potential and our potential for experiencing fulfillment.
It’d
sure be a lot ease-ier for All of Us if we just called the whole ‘damn’
thing off. Everybody admit to being ignorant and making a lot of
mistakes. Oopsie.”
“To err is Human,” says my Husband.
“And
‘To Forgive is Divine’, I add. “That’s just it. We keep
forgetting to access the Divine part. I am Human and I am God
also. While many of Us gather together, giving each other
encouragement and support for our facades, we really, truly, genuinely,
DON’T believe in Forgiveness.
Because the perspectives the Lot of us express sure aren’t it.
It’s
easy to laugh at a mistake, an oppsie and, the ability to laugh at
ourselves is crucial. ‘Stupid can’t be fixed.’
Sense-less-ness can. I have a great deal of Faith in Us. I
know what we are capable of and our potentials. We’ve been
limiting ourselves and the intrinsic worth of our lives, by being
infected with beliefs that cause self-doubt and a whole pile of self
worth and self-esteem issues. Life would be more enjoyable
for All of us, if We were fully functional instead of handicapped in
our awareness.
We can play well together instead of ‘ill at ease’. In Unity.
Unity is an Absolute.
There is only One Whole.
There is only One Infinity.
There is only One Eternity.
There is only One Unified Quantum Field.
There is only One All.
All embracing means just that. Nothing is excluded or rejected.
The Essence of Unity unifies….Always embraces all ways.
That’s the Voice of Spirit; the Voice of God.
It’s a Voice that expresses Unconditional Loving.
A genuinely limitless unlimited.
And
if it’s missing this tone of Unity, of All Encompassing and All
inclusive, then it’s a sure sign that the belief is man made
non-sense. No matter how many of Us fossilized fools choose to
believe it.
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