the divine feminine - i am compassion
unconditional love is an
immaculate concept
 Compassion
I Am
Understanding
All That Is
Includes All That Is
“The
warriors of my tribe would call you ‘woman who knows too much and it
has made you crazy’. Your curse is that you have to live with
yourself.”¸ He said.
That’s Clel, he’s always popping off
saying something like that. Something that plain makes me
laugh. People call him crazy, too, half Native American, half
Mexican, and proud of it, a real firecracker. Of course, it’s
his
craziness I find thoroughly enjoyable about him. He’s astute,
with much insight and, is totally clueless.
My Husband spoke up, “Maybe the curse is living with the rest of us?”
At
that, I started to laugh. “It’s a real experience all
right. Like living with a bunch of Helen Keller
dolls. Ever
considered what it’s like to be right in front of someone and not be
seen? Run over, run through, bumped into, stepped on,
ignored,
you name it. I really do try my best to stay out of the way
most
of the time. It’s ‘safer’ that way.”
My Husband rolled his eyes. “That doesn’t sound very
complimentary.”
Depends
on how we choose to take it. Offense can only be
taken. If
our goal is blindness, then I pay Us a compliment of great Respect and
Admiration. We have succeeded in our goal. It’s
only if we
don’t consider ourselves as blind and recognize our goal of blindness,
that my statement is less than supportive. I
consider
myself part of ‘Us’. I’ve been blind. I’ve been
deaf.
And I sure as hell have been dumb. Maybe not in this lifetime
to
the extent of others but still blind and deaf and dumb. Being
able to admit it and accept it, is the cure for it.
I
haven’t met a One of Us yet who were ignorant on purpose. We
don’t know what we don’t know. We’ve all been there.
Being
able to see ourselves as we are, not as wish to be seen, creates the
inspiration within us for change. What I know as ‘True
Repentance’. When we see ourselves in a mirror and don’t like
what we see, we’re inspired to change. If we want to change
the
reflection, we need to change what’s doing the reflecting.
Show
thyself improved. It’s like looking at myself in jogging
pants
and a baggy sweatshirt, inspires me to go change my clothes.
Better yet, it’s the picture entitled ‘Vanity’. You know the
one
I mean. From one perspective, it appears to be a fine lady
sitting in front of her dressing table but then you get a good look at
it and…it’s a picture of a skull.
I remind Us
that Helen Keller was a magnificent woman. She radiated much
Light of Understanding into the worlds of those we labeled
‘defective’. She was truly brilliant. Once her
world within
was unlocked and ways of expression learned, we could all recognize
it. It’s the same with the rest of Us, once we begin to
unlock
what’s within Us.
Brilliance. That’s what within
Us. Every single One of Us. To the extent we don’t
know it,
is the extent our veils are blinding Us to it.”
“Veils?”, my Husband asks.
Blinders,
screens, filters that obscure, veils. The only
reason
everyone doesn’t know what I know, is because of the filters.
The
filters obscure the Light of Clarity and the Light of Truth.
Try
imagining sunglasses instead of veils. If I put on a hundred
pair
of sunglasses, I wouldn’t be able to see much of anything, if
anything. It would appear to me that nothing was there, no
matter
what was there. Reminds me of a little kid that thinks if
they
cover their eyes, I can’t see them. If I want to see, I need
to
start removing the sunglasses, one pair at a time.
It’s the same way with our veils. And these veils are made of
our beliefs.”
“What we think?”
“Not
necessarily. Our beliefs are what we really feel in our
Hearts. Our heads aren’t in contact with our Hearts a lot of
the
time. Intimacy is a BIG issue for a great many of
Us. So
whether our thoughts accurately reflect our beliefs is
questionable. Sometimes, yes. Most of the time,
no.
We don’t think we’re blind. We believe we are.
We knock our lights out then complain it’s dark.”
“What do you mean ‘knock our light out’?”
“We stick a finger in our eye then complain that something’s in it.
We don’t believe we’re capable of knowing ‘God’, so…we don’t.
Like I’ve said, ‘The only way to overlook the obvious is not to look.’
There’s
a belief that ‘God’ is beyond a Human Being’s capacity to know and
understand. That belief, is what I call ‘knocking our lights
out’. It negates our minds, our cognitive ability, our
ability to
associate ideas, and our capacity of imagination. And let’s
not
forget our Intuition. This belief in ‘not knowing’ is
Ignorance. Perpetual, congenital, ignorance. It has
been
specifically written that we were made in ‘God’s’ image.
Unless
‘god’ is a dumb-ass, there’s no reason we should be.
I don’t
accept the idea that ’God’ is beyond our capacity to know and
understand. I refuse to negate and dishonor the Ever Loving
Mind
I have and am Sovereign over. If I divorce myself from my
tool of
Understanding, then I won’t understand, that’s for sure. Just
as
poking my eyes out insures I’ll be blind.
It’s simply a matter of perspective who’s really crazy. I’m
not crazy; the World is.”
“That’s one of the classic symptoms of being crazy: thinking it’s not
you”, says Hubby.
You’re
right. I did question myself. Long ago. I
‘studied’
and now show myself improved. I used to be crazy, too, so
long as
I thought and believed the way the World taught me to think and
believe. I was young then. And naïve. The
World’s
pattern of thought is all conflicted.
I’ve got my own litmus
test for crazy: Making sense. I make
sense. The
beliefs of the World, don’t. If anything, I’m too
sane. No
matter how long it takes me to talk in circles, I always make a
point. And when I do, I’ve come full circle. It’s
called
‘complete’.
“The only way to overlook the obvious is not to look?”
“Precisely.
Once I’ve negated my tool of Understanding, there’s clearly no way I’m
going to Understand, no way I’m ever going to experience Understanding
and, no way I’m going to respond to life in an Understanding
way.
I can’t give what I haven’t got.
If we don’t believe we can
Understand, we won’t put forth any effort to even try.
Understanding being a door that is closed to Us, we’ll concentrate of
being ‘right’ instead. We have to ask ourselves what we
really
believe in. Being Right? Being
Righteous? One
does not necessarily mean the other.
Blind faith requires we
live that Faith, blind, without Understanding. Once
Understanding
sinks in, we’re not blind anymore. Reminds me of being so
desperate for Loving, that we’d use 2 paper bags to ‘make love’ to an
ugly hooker. The first bag being to mask her face, the other
being used to mask ours in case hers falls off. That’s what
‘blind faith’ is.
“That sounds awful! What do you really mean?” Clel asks.
“Blind
faith asks Us to worship a psychologically ugly persona, ‘the ugly
hooker’. ‘Hooker’ because her ‘love’ is extended only through
barter. That tells me it’s ‘need’ disguising itself as
‘love’,
for genuine Love extends itself freely. ‘Ugly’, because of
the
beliefs we have painted on her face. Beliefs in Being
conditional. Judgmental. Rejecting.
Vindictive.
Jealous. Angry. Possessive.
Abandoning. The
face is so ugly the way we paint it, that we have to blind ourselves to
it. The bag over her head, masks the hideous face we
painted. The bag over our head masks our face, in case hers
falls
off. For We cannot hide what we truly feel. There
is truly
and genuinely no way we’re ever going to feel Love and Attraction
towards this ugly persona. So we hide our face to mask our
shame
and deceit. This is a relationship pattern between Us and
‘God’,
specifically the Holy Spirit, imagined as one of ‘need’. This
isn’t ‘love making’. It’s prostitution, where our emotions
are
raped at the same time.
I won’t divorce myself from the
Universal Principal of cause and effect, reaping and sowing.
‘Adoration’ is a consequence of Being ‘Adorable’. You BE
adorable
and I’ll adore you. I hardly find the condemning, rejecting
and
emotionally insecure ‘god’ of the World adorable at all. Far
from
it. I don’t happen to see Condemnation, Vengeance,
Retribution
and Abandonment as Loving much less Lovable. This
face we
paint on God isn’t attractive. The persona is insecure and
limited. Not my kind of ideal…a limited unlimited.
And the
purpose of this ugly face, is to repulse Us. To motivate Us
to
avoid ‘Intimacy’ at all costs. To ‘Know’ God. To
‘Understand’ God. The Unconditionally Loving One.
With the
beautiful face and comforting embrace.
Always embraces all ways.
I
admit, my perspective has to do with my choice of values, what I find
of value and what I qualify as valuable. To Value means to
Love. Here’s a good question: What’s the Value of a
value
system founded on lack of value? Absolutely
nothing. Yet,
that’s the value system most of us believe in and are trying to live.”
“A Value system founded on lack of Value?”
“Yes.
The World’s Value system is founded on lack of Value.
Denial. Specifically, self denial. Denying Loving
ourselves
Unconditionally. The less Loving it is, the more valuable it
is
to the majority of Us, since that majority believes in Love only upon
condition. This isn’t ‘Love’ in the first
place. It’s
the lack of it…it’s ‘need’. Us that don’t have, seek to
‘get’,
through barter, through trade. And any other means necessary:
force, coercion, subversion, extortion,
etc. We’ve
created a global economy based on emotional insecurity.
Loving
the lack of Love. See what I mean by crazy? A Value
system
with no value in it.
And as for this value system’s ‘moral code’, it is essentially a code
of conduct for the amoral.”
“A moral code for the amoral?”
“Yes.
‘Moral’means that which is chosen. What with all the
conditions
placed on being loved and accepted, freedom of choice is
negated.
If I take choice out of the picture, then no ‘morals’ are
possible. It becomes a code, not of morality but of
a-morality. A code of conduct for the amoral.
Any
moral code impossible to live, can’t Be lived. But we can
try. That’s all we’ve been doing. Trying to make
the
impossible possible instead of realizing the impracticality and
futility of it. Any code that only promises rewards upon
death
isn’t a code that supports Life. The only way to actually
live
the code is to die, for Death is the purpose and goal of the
code. But it’s important to realize that not just any death
will
do. The greater the suffering, the supposedly greater the
rewards
gained from the freedom of the grave.
It’s not only
Death that is worshipped, it’s death by slow torture that is the
pinnacle of this codes moral achievement.
And forget
about living in Integrity with the code. It’s impossible to
both
live and die at the same time and place in the same
dimension. So
long as we live, we live in conflict with this code.
Just as
soon as I came to this realization myself, I changed my code.
Most of us don’t even realize it’s a code of death we really believe
in. We think we Love Life. But Fear of Death is not
a Love
for Life nor does it bring to Us the Wisdom to support it.
What
we worship with every breath of our Life, is death. It’s
subliminal for most of us, but it’s there if we but allow ourselves to
look and ponder. But we must look seeking Understanding
instead
of being ‘right’. If there is imagined a possibility of
torture,
pain and suffering upon Death, then Death becomes feared.
This
fear can then be used as a whip to control and enslave populations of
People.
If you look around our World, it’s obvious what
beliefs are being expressed. Daily.
Hourly. Moment to
moment. Experiences of separation. Separated from
feeling
Loved. Separated from Life. Separated from
Sense.
Separated from each other. Separated from a loving Universe
capable of being embraced with open arms. The World uses
Swords
of Mind to draw lines. I don’t draw lines anymore.
And I
erased the ones I did have.
My values start with sense, as
in making some. E-sense. The goal of my Life isn’t
to reach
death’s door through as much suffering as possible. The goal
of
my Life is to live it.
Ponder these thoughts for a
while…What’s an ‘All That Is’ got to be jealous of? And
Possessive? What’s that all about? What else is
there
besides ‘All That Is, Was and Ever Will Be’ to
possess? To
need? That’s goofy. Love extends Itself for the Joy
of
extending itself. Love doesn’t need anything in
return. No
conditions. No lines drawn separating reality. No
One left
out, rejected or abandoned.
I simply refuse to be
dumb just as I refuse to be blind. Such is what happens when
we
open the door to our Hearts and allow the Essence of Understanding
in. It’s like light bulbs going off inside Us. One
‘Aha!’
moment after another.
We start seeking to add things
up. ‘Adding things up’ being one of the expressions of the
Essence of Unity. In order to be ‘Whole’ everything has to
add
up. Can’t be any part left out or it isn’t
Whole.
‘Adding things up’ requires the use of our cognitive faculties in
bringing forth the Essence of Understanding, precisely what most
religions do not want done.
The Essence of Understanding
expresses itself most basically in our ability to associate and relate
ideas. We play with ideas in our minds like kids play with
blocks. We build concepts. We build beliefs and
belief
systems. We build cultures, civilizations and
societies.
This is the faculty of cognitive association and generally speaking,
most of us have the use of it. Should we choose to use it.
Sometimes
we call this association of ideas ‘thinking’. I’m picky about
it. Integration and Integrity are my goals. They
come in a
package deal with the experiences of ‘Whole’ and ‘Complete’.
In
order for me to give credit for ‘thinking’, there has to be more to it
that a hodge-podge of random ideas associated in such a way that
nothing makes sense. ‘Adding things up’ requires the use of
Reason. Reasoning is a process that associates ideas in ways
where nothing is negated and no contradictions are made. It
used
to be known as ‘common sense’, since this faculty of Reason is common
to All of Us.
According to my Understanding, the thought
patterns of our World in no way resemble much in the way of
thinking. Proper parroting, I call it. What’s
considered
‘proper’ is to Parrot. That’s why I’m ‘improper’ because I
don’t
Parrot. I’m not reflecting to the World, what the
World
expects reflected.”
“Parrot?” Clel pipes up. “Nothing sucks seeds like a Parrot.”
“Very
funny. I have a different idea of what it means to succeed
besides sucking seeds. By ‘parroting’ I mean that the
majority of
Us have never entertained an independent thought. The only
ideas
in our heads are those put there by our family, our religions and, our
governments. We don’t question. We’re Parrots.
“Bird brains? Asks Clel.
“I didn’t say it; you did. I give the birds more credit.”
“Now you’re getting downright mean.”, says Clel.
“I’m
being truthful and honest. ‘Mean’ is a judgment of
qualification
because you didn’t like what I said. It doesn’t mean I’m
‘mean’. It simply means you didn’t like it.
I don’t
give the birds capacity to think. A bird’s brain isn’t that
big. It’s not big enough to process information.
It’s not
big enough to store information, like all the directions needed to fly
south for the winter. And since I haven’t spotted any tiny
bird
cell phones they all use to communicate when to turn in formation, I
know they rely on their senses, specifically their ability to sense
gravitational fields. E-senses. Like the basic
Essence of
Life that acts to support and nurture all Life. ‘Instinct’ in plants
and animals. ‘Intuition’ in Human Beings. Same song of Life,
just
different octaves of expression.
Birds don’t have the same
freedom of choice to divorce themselves from their means of awareness
as we do. A bird can’t choose to short circuit it’s Love for
its
own Life. It’s only Human Beings that have the free choice to
negate our most basic ‘Instinct’. Our Love for
Life. And
the majority of Us have done it.
We draw lines of
limitation. Endeavoring to emulate an historical ideal that
was a
product of the imagination of a ragtag bunch of primitive nomadic
tribes. Volcano blowing up was understood to mean the ‘gods’
must
be displeased. Or better yet, that ‘god’ was offended and
demanded some form of restitution in the manner of sacrifice.
A
god that needs. An impotent Omnipotence.
We,
Humanity, didn’t even understand our World was round back
then.
Even now, we’re somewhat pathetic. There was one of Us
knuckleheads spouting off about a month ago that Hurricane Katrina was
‘god’s’ punishment for New Orleans being a city of ‘sin’. Notice how
blind, ignorant and ‘righteous’ we can be?
If we build our
house below sea level, then we shouldn’t be surprised when water comes
into our kitchens. Just as if we build our house on the side
of
an active volcano we shouldn’t be surprised by lava in our living
room. Making choices in defiance of reality is one
thing.
Offending some sort of insecure deity, quite another.
I give
most of Us credit for acquiring some smarts over the past few thousands
of years. We didn’t stagnate. We’re Living
Beings.
We’ve grown in our understanding of our World and now, maybe it’s time
we grew in our Understanding of ourselves.”
“Primitive nomadic tribes? Are you insulting my tribal
culture?’ hollers Clel.
“I’m
talking about the nomadic tribes of thousands of years ago, that were
interspersed throughout the Middle East and Europe. Our
‘cradle
of civilization’ for Western Culture. Our current culture is
riddled and infiltrated with primitive beliefs: taboos, fetishes and
superstitions. From a time in history when what passed for
‘god’
in our imagination, was simply a bigger version of ourselves and, just
as limited in terms of Understanding and Compassion. Later,
these
beliefs were translated into ‘sins’.
We’re blind to
the fact that such beliefs express our own limitations. Where
we’ve drawn lines and chosen to pick up swords, repeating the past.”
“You mentioned drawing lines a couple of times. What do you
mean?”
“I
mean we draw lines when it comes to Loving Life. ‘Life’ is an
experience. And we draw lines when it comes to what
experiences
we willingly embrace with Understanding, Acceptance, Tolerance,
Compassion and Mercy. The ‘right & wrong’ bit is
simply
‘moral’ cough cough justification for our deplorable lacks in
terms of qualities of character. Anytime there is a polarity
issue, then a line of separation and imitation has been drawn.
What
Eastern mystics call ‘Karma’ is nothing more than self-judgment, where
all these lines have been drawn. Look at the relationship we
have
with Life, with ‘God’, with the Unified Quantum Field. Is it
limited? What do we reject? What experiences in
Life have
we and do we, pick up our swords of Mind, label ‘negative’ and,
endeavor to separate ourselves from? Every moment is a
Present. Whether that moment is happy or sad. How
often are
we appreciative and grateful for our Presents?
How much do we Love Life?
It
doesn’t matter what side a person chooses in a polarity game, red or
blue. A polarity game is a game of separation. It’s
why I
don’t play. Only losers play games of polarity. And
I’m not
a loser anymore. It goes something like this:
Polarity =
Loser. AnyOne of Us living a reality divided into parts, like
right and wrong, good and bad, light and dark, etc., has already chosen
to live life as a loser, choosing to limit ourselves. The
only
winning move is not to play the game. And the only way out of
it
is through Understanding the Unity of Life, as Christ and other “sons
of god” have exemplified.
The current Understanding
of ‘Christianity’ doesn’t have much Essence of Christ in
it. I’d call what we created a ‘Jesus
cult’. It’s
easy to spot members of a Jesus cult. They’re the ones of Us
carrying around crosses and wailing about our roles as martyrs and
victims. A Jesus cult worships suffering.
One time a
fundamentalist asked me if Jesus knocked on my door, would I
answer? I said ‘yes’ and went on to say that I would tell him
he
was welcome in my house, however, he’d have to leave his cross at the
door. For Christ already dwells in my house.
Jesus
represents carrying around a burden of Guilt. Christ
represents
freedom, from it, through the Essence of Forgiveness. Ones
wears
a crown of Thorns, the other, carries a Lily. Guilt and
Forgiveness are mutually exclusive terms. Not a One of Us
going
around whipping ourselves with guilt over some imagined ‘sin’ genuinely
believes in Christ.
“You’re stepping on quite a few toes, Honey,” says my loving Husband.
“I
know. I’ve been accused of being ‘anti-every religion I know’
at
one time or another. I never will forget the
Holocaust
survivor that about blew a fuse when I mentioned ‘reaping and sowing’
and related it to beliefs founded in arrogance, bias, supremacy, and
prejudice. Religious arrogance, religious bias, religious
supremacy and religious prejudice. They didn’t like it at all
when I illuminated that if We don’t want to reap it, then We should
quit sowing it. I said Justice was Just, not
necessarily
deserved.
It’s what I was saying about the difference
between what we think and what we believe. We think we’re
‘Christians’ if we think about it at all. “Christian”
actually
means Christ-like linguistically, when what we truly believe in, is
Guilt. Limitation is the World’s Passion.
Expansion
of the Kingdom, Mine. Nothing separates heaven from Earth
unless
I choose to see it that way. This is where the World and I
differ. I don’t choose to see it that way.
I don’t
idolize man-made nonsense, as in, a limited Unlimited or an impotent
Omnipotence. It’s Understanding and Compassion I value, not
Condemnation and Rejection. Sooner or later, were all going
to
realize that the abstract can only be brought down to earth by
choice. This requires we cease our knee jerk reactions to
judge
and condemn, drawing lines and, start building a healthier relationship
with Life through Understanding.
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