I’ve been sharing for over 2 years to get ready to “surrender all outer attachments”.  In LIGHT of what has happened economically,  I’m posting this again.  I give ‘fair’ warning, anything having to do with a “credit rating” is an outer attachment.  Continuing to hold onto to this outer attachment will only bring more loss and hardship, as credit card holders are drained of life energy.  Be AWARE when making choices.

Reports are also streaming in, that within a few years, over 70% of the children in the US will be using Food stamps and have inadequate health care, with numbers approaching 90% in the adult category needing these services.  It has been stated that the population in the US will be experiencing the worst case of physical deprivation seen in many lifetimes.

We will continue to be offered motivation and opportunities to shift our values…, until we do.  Once we shift, then things will get better and not before.

“I Have”

Things of Value I Carry with Me

The Law of Love & Attraction. Obviously, I had issues with what I was and had been, attracting, as far as experiences went. Same ole’ story, over and over and over. And I didn’t especially like it. Enough is as good as a feast, already.

I could understand the magnetism of what I was attracting on a Quantum level but, honestly, what did Love have to do with it?

Then it hit me, I had chosen to Love the lack of it. Of all things, me, blindsided when it came to Values. That’s when I became the proverbial bull in a china shop. The china shop being the Values I had been serving. That I was now mindless in rattling as my inner life came crashing down, as insubstantial as a house of cards.

One time later in my story my Husband suggested I give away my secret formula for miracles. Just charge a hell of a lot for postage and handling. I disregarded his statement about postage and handling, knowing he was just being a rascal. But his statement that I had a secret formula puzzled me. I didn’t know I knew a formula, secret or otherwise, for miracles.

Then he quoted my own words back to me.

“Values I carry with me where ever I go.”

Oh, I thought, that formula. ‘That’s a formula?’, I asked him, somewhat thrown off by the utter blatancy that had escaped me, unnoticed. Him, being him, just let me chew on it for a while, letting me digest what he had said. It required I take a trip down memory lane, to when I first asked myself to make a list of:

Values I carry with me where ever I go.

I remembered my list. I also remembered how insecure a person I was when I made it.

I listed things like:

Money

Credit card

Debit card

Safety deposit box key. (which held a whole ‘nother list)

The next question I asked myself was, ‘how much time did I spend absorbed with these things?’

Stark realization began to sink in. I spent a LOT of time focused on these things, protecting these things and, trying to accumulate more. Why, my feelings of worth and security, were tied to these and other, things.

Things I could get using various means. I never did resort to outright thievery. I learned about working for what I desired. I also learned how to cajole and manipulate through guilt. Blaming other people for how I felt and, doing my best to try to make them feel guilty for me feeling that ‘not happy’ way. Among the things that I counted on the most, was getting other people to agree with me.

I looked at my list. Things I could get.

Things that not only could be got, but could also be taken. Which led me face to face with one of my greatest fears. Loss. Loss of the things and loss of the ability to get more.

A panorama of my life opened up before me. It almost made me nauseous.

I could get alright. But in that getting, I never did have. I had spent countless moments pursuing objects of my affection, that once acquired, never had led to any firm or secure sense of anything. Worth or loved. What I had created instead, was a solid sense of being able to acquire and to fight to keep.

And it took a lot of effort.

Being Honest with mySelf, I’m like a train to get moving. I gather momentum as I go. That makes it easy to plough through barricades in my way without any extra effort. I asked my momentous Self what was the purpose of all this revving of engines if I never arrived at a destination? Perpetual motion was exhausting. Especially when it took everything I got, to keep going. Aha! Give and take…equals a net of zero.

I finally grasped it.

My previous list had been a list of things I could get. Had got. And showed my potential for getting even more.

Look at me! I’m a go-getter. Barreling down the tracks.

With my one track mind fueled by all my insecurities.

My inner world reeled as I came to a complete stop in my thinking. That‘s when my life started to resemble a train wreck as far as appearances went.

‘Things of Value I carry with me where ever I go.’

Where had I invested my sense of worth?

OUTSIDE of myself, that’s where. In things. In Objects. In achievements. I saw where this train of thought had led. To an endless series of competitions as a racing rat of an engine. How cheesy.

Oh, by all appearances I certainly wouldn’t have been considered even close to poor, yet, it was all a screen. A fake store front. It provided an appearance of a person of worth. I say ‘fake’ simply because inside my own heart, where it counted, I knew I wasn’t secure. Everything I got, could be taken.

Worse, even if I managed to ‘keep’ whatever I ‘got’, no matter how durable the good, it eventually would return to dust. Even plastic was biodegradable in lava. Depreciation, depletion, amortization, erosion, devaluation, attrition, everywhere I looked was subject to outside influences. Especially time.

Staking my worth and sense of security on anything like this was risky. I’d have to be pretty tricky and inventive to be able to control all these possible outside influences. Even if I somehow managed the ludicrous idea of becoming Heap Big Chief in charge, controlling ’time’ was going to be somewhat of a challenge.

There’s got to be something else, my Intuition told me. I just sensed it. So I asked myself the question again.

‘What Values do I carry with me where ever I go?’

And it was in asking again, that I finally Understood. ‘Getting’ and ‘having’ are different experiences.

What were the qualities of my character? What was inside my Heart? And I began taking an inner inventory this time. An inventory of qualities of character I could call upon at any moment’s notice. Any Where. Any When. Values of a Timeless sort of nature. Understanding, Acceptance, Tolerance, Patience, Compassion, Wisdom and, Forgiveness.

‘They were all there‘, I sighed to myself with a sense of relief. Some in greater supply then others, especially Patience and Trust but, all were there. I Had. I realized I also Had all the Freedom in Life, to Have more. Anytime I desired. Completely independent of anything and anyone else.

Ever since then I’ve lived with a Secure sense of Worth.

Secure in knowing Love is very Attractive.

There’s been another shift.  In case we might not remember, about 2 years ago I shared these shifts were coming in a series.   This one I could call #2.   When #1 came through, our Economy ~changed~.  This time different areas are going to be highlighted, specifically the areas of Equality, Balance, Harmony, Justice and Human Resources.

Basically, if we have drained other people’s energy in order to build our personal realities, then our lives are going to be drained in an equal and like manner.   Our desires thwarted while others’ desires served.   It’s called “Fair” and “Equitable”.   The “quantum flow” has shifted.  It is no longer going in the direction of greatest separation.  It is now flowing towards Unity.

Those of Us who chose to go “against the flow” and Value Unity over the Past, know that the experience can be likened to a salmon swimming upstream.  Now the current has changed,  it is everyone of Us experiencing a dual or polarized reality that is now a salmon, swimming upstream.

First thing I can share to make the trip ease-ier, is to say give up all Hope of the flow going back to the way it used to be.  Quit even so much as wishing or trying to go back to the old ways of living and doing things.  Don’t resist the flow; surrender to it.

Notice the title of this post?  I’m going to use the symbols of numbers, symbols commonly known and understood, as I endeavor to share the Understanding of what is transpiring.

Each and every single one of Us is a “1″.  We’re All individuals.  Whether we end up being a “2″ kind of One or an “11″ kind of One is determined by how we relate to others.

Like apples and oranges, “2’s” form relationships with other “2’s”,  “11’s” form relationships with other “11’s”.   Apples relate to apples, oranges relate to oranges.   “Peas stick your own pod.”  Why?

Because the very pattern of relating itself is different.  The game board looks the same for either chess or checkers.  But if one person sits down to play chess and another to play checkers, they’re not going to get along from the very start.   Such is the same for “11’s” and “2’s”.  We’re all sharing the same World.  We simply all don’t relate to that same World in the same way.

In terms of basic math, all “2’s” form relationships diagrammed like this:  1 + 1 = 2.  All “11’s” form relationships diagrammed like this: 1 + 1 = 11.

Energetically, we can see how this goes, when carried further with more “1’s”.

1 + 1 + 1 = 3; 1 + 1 + 1 = 111.
1 + 1 + 1 + 1 = 4; 1 + 1 + 1 + 1 = 1,111.

It takes 11 “2’s” to equal the energy of 2 “11’s”.  It takes 111 “2’s” to equal the energy of 3 “11’s”.  It takes 1,111 “2’s” to equal the energy of 4 “11’s”.

Getting the picture?

Humanity as a Race, is evolving into “11’s”.

And subconsciously all “2’s” already know this.   It’s the reason there is so much fear.  How can a “2″ possibly compete with an “11″ for resources?  There is simply no way.

So it sure is a good thing that “11’s” don’t “compete” isn’t it? An “11″ has NO interest in “competition”; an “11″ is only interested in “cooperation”.   “11’s” are Whole Beings…, Integrated Beings…, inter-dimensional Beings.

And “2’s” are not.

“11’s” are Masters of the physical plane

and “2’s” are slaves of it.

The goal and purpose of the “11’s”

is to free all the slaves.

Unlike the Civil War, we’re not going to war.   Oh, “2’s” are welcome to conflict all “2’s” want.  All conflict will do is drain the “2’s” of energy quicker, which serves the purpose of an “11″, {{{too}}}.  Why would an “11″ want to conflict with that?

“11’s” are here witnessing and bringing in “Christ’s 2000 year reign on earth”.  What this simply means, is that all earth realities are being brought into alignment with Greater, Universal Realities.   Earth Humanity is being recognized and accorded Universal citizenship, basically.   So now we have to ‘clean up’ our acts.  There ARE standards to be met, that’s where the “11’s” come in.  “11’s” are teaching the Universal standard through living it and expressing it.

And there’s a lot of work to do.  A lot of “2’s” that caught the preceding shifts got stuck, so there are fewer “11’s” then had been hoped for.  Expansions in awareness were used to glorify and exalt individuals, without the Personalities of those individuals being transformed and purified.  Because the gift of awareness was used for selfish purposes, these individuals were and are, blocked from any further expansions.  They got *stuck* in their own illusions and will remain there, until their Personalities learn how to kneel before the Wisdom of their Universal Self.

Like the Initiation of the Freemasons, a man is brought in blindfolded and led in by a noose around his neck.  The meaning of the Initiation is the admittance of being blind and ignorant, thus the blindfold and the noose.  It’s the reason why I use the  WORD “ignorant” to describe ourselves, even though I know how much it aggravates and annoys our false sense of pride.  It is our false pride that has to be put aside.

Just to be clear about something, I’m not speaking from a perspective of making all the ‘right’ decisions.  I know how much I resisted, unknowingly and unconsciously.   And I barely survived the process.  The way was hard and made even more difficult because it was accomplished in the face of Humanity’s collective momentum of resistance. Now the tables have turned.

And all collective “11’s” are dedicated and devoted to making the path easier on all “2’s” then it was for Us.   UNconditional Love in our hearts for ALL Humanity is our fuel.  That’s what makes an “11″, an “11″.  “2’s” only ‘love’ the “good” part of Humanity, not the “bad”.  “2’s” are limited in Understanding and Compassion for Humanity, while “11’s” are not.

As simply as know how to put it into words, a “2″ is psychologically needy and unbalanced, while an “11″ is not.  A “2″ forms relationships for what We can get out of another person or what they can do for us.  An “11″ forms relationships out of a realization and recognition of qualities of character that are Loving.   Limits in the characters of “2’s” are energetically repulsive to “11’s”.

I thought it would be helpful if I listed the character traits of “2’s” and “11’s”.  It would make it easier to discern the subtle, yet profound differences.  Below is a table.  The middle column is for “11’s”.  The outer columns are  for “2’s”.  Since all “2’s” are off balanced, in order for Universal balance to be maintained, there are always equal numbers of “2’s” off balanced, just in different extremes. That’s why the “2’s” get (2) columns, because “2’s” are polarized, there are just as many (+)’s as (-)’s.  So the columns are read as follows: overbalanced, balanced, underbalanced.

To put it another way, imagine we are all on a great big boat.  The way our world has been going, all the “2’s” are doing nothing more then rocking the boat, being lined up on either side.  “11″s are standing in the middle of the boat and calling out for every “2″ to take one giant step towards the middle of the boat.  All “2’s” that aren’t ready to take that step, are jumping ship.

Here’s the table:

*N.I.C.E:  Neurotic, Insincere, Compulsive, Emotionally dependent

“2’s” are slaves of matter, victims of it, while “11’s” are Masters of matter.  Sovereign creator power is still being accessed by all “2’s”.   It is quite simply, that “2’s” avoid and deny being responsible for individual choices and uses of Willpower. Once we cease attempts at denial, understanding what we’ve been doing to ourselves becomes clear.

While many of Us tried to use our Understanding of the Law of Attraction to create an abundant future, the Wise among us, started studying how we created our lacks in the first place.  It’s kind of like CSS (cascading style sheets).  It does no good to create a new style sheet, without changing the one that is running by default.

Hope this helps.

Get ready for some more rock n roll.

Love,

Sue Ann

Told Us so…

On this post, June 6, 2008:

http://sueannedwards.wordpress.com/2008/06/05/the-carrot-and-the-donkey/

“I withhold my support for any of the teachings.   It’s the same pile of shallow *crap* that’s been circulating the past 10 years.  A lot of chatter from and about our false egos…that’s all it is.”

My comment was directed towards James Ray’s teachings.   I used the phrase “dumbass” in my comment too.  This is the same man who is currently under investigation for conducting a “spiritual warrior” sweat lodge that resulted in 2 people dead and 17 more sent to hospitals.

Reminds me of the group in Colorado around 15 years ago.  In order to bring more light into their minds, they drilled a hole in the top of their heads the size of a quarter.

“A weekend that will truly change your life.”

At least that much was true.

I wouldn’t believe a word coming out of this man’s mouth.

$9000.00?

…

A fool and their money are soon parted.

Updated Friday October 16, 2009:

“This is the most difficult time I’ve ever faced,” Ray told a crowd of about 200 at a hotel in Marina del Rey. “I don’t know how to deal with it really.”

Noticeably LACKING in emotional skills, huh?  Nothing *wrong* with this of course.  It simply reveals a state of both emotional poverty AND spiritual poverty.

“Warrior”, indeed.   Simply the word itself conveys a state of conflict.  And just imagine…having the audacity to claim being able to ‘teach’ “Harmonic Weath”!    Everything about every idea expressed indicates a LACK of any kind of understanding or realization of the ’spiritual’ or ‘quantum’  planes of existence.   Much less living in HARMONY with those planes of existence.

One time I asked an Indian Shaman the purpose or meaning of ‘animal guides’.  He told me that these guides are necessary in order to carry us across the great void that separates the realms of spirit from the earth.

And I responded, “If I don’t imagine any void of separation then I really don’t need anyone’s or anything else’s help to access the territory at will, do I?”

ANY and ALL of our ideas based on the concept of separation and/or conflict, are of our own making, meaning Man-made and, do not express ANY Realization nor Understanding of Absolute States of Being.

Finally, all the frauds are being exposed…

Reality consists of both positive and negative.  Anytime we focus our will and our desire upon only positive, is the moment we’ve stepped into a fantasy land founded upon wiping out Reality.

And Reality always eventually shows up and wipes out the wiper.

Harmonic Wealth consists of genuine Attributes of character, expressing an Integration of the dimensions.  A Spiritual wealth will be reflected as mental wealth, which is an abundance of ideas; it will be reflected as emotional wealth, which is an abundance of intimate relationships and finally…it will be reflected as physical wealth, which is defined as the “use of” energy, not ownership and possession of it.

Anyone teaching conflict knows nothing of Harmony.

This is an inner weather report.   After a month’s rest from July’s pounding waves, there are some more waves coming in that are going to trigger more shifts.  These shifts are to further our alignment process, setting us into position to move into the “new” lives we have chosen.

I guess our problem is, that a lot of us are clueless to the “new” lives we chose and, have been expecting something altogether different then what will be, similar to Michael Jackson and David Carradine.

I do not know what events will show up in all our individual lives but what I do know is that these events are going to create emotional waves that will build to a crescendo by the end of the week.   By the weekend, inner alarm bells will be ringing to address the issues.   It will not be a wise time to sleep through the alarm or hit the snooze  button.

The issue Is and Will Be, Accountability.  As all the events set into motion will be effects of us choosing to live in denial of it.

Unfortunately for a lot of Us, the Standard of Accountability the issues surround, is one that is relatively unknown and not even usually considered.

But in the future, it most likely will be!

That’s the “good” news, meaning pleasant and wise way of looking at events.

No, it’s not pleasant to find ourselves standing knee deep in our own *poo* but the discovery does lead to desire to start cleaning our acts up.

The Accountability that I’m writing of and about, is the Accountability for the use of Willpower.  Most especially the use of it by those of us in denial of our own.

Accountability simply hasn’t been on the list of qualities we have chosen to value, most especially in the areas of Be-ing mentally and emotionally self disciplined, self governing and self nurturing.    The events that will be manifesting/transpiring, will be to align us with the consequences of our choices in these areas.

For over a decade, I have chosen to withdraw all of my energetic support from any and all of our irrational wishes of a fuzzy bunny lalaland of harps and clouds.  I have been trying to convey in as kind a way as possible, that the Divine Feminine is not a personification of emotional weakness.  It is the Personification of a Loving Will.

We could have chosen ~easy~ but most of us didn’t.  We chose ~easy~ street.  Which is ~easy~ to get to.

Just not ~easy~ to live there.

“Have we been self disciplined or have we depended upon the self discipline of others?”

That is THE key question.

For if we have been self diciplined, responsible and accountable, then times that require it are ~easy~ and if we haven’t been self disciplined, responsible and accountable, then times that require it aren’t.

This is a time of opportunity.

An opportunity of self development.

And for those of us who have never required, nor expected it out of ourselves before, the sooner we do, the sooner our lives will show improvement and progress.

Sometimes the journey is gentle; sometimes it is steep.  The only time it is ~easy~ is when we know we have within Us, whatever the next step takes.

What I ’see’ in my minds’ eye, I liken to a mountain.   A lot of Us made it to the foothills over a decade ago.  A few of us continued ascending up the mountain,  facing the steep climbs when they appeared upon our paths.    A great number of us chose to stop there, worn out by the hike to the foothills and,  stayed behind to frolic in the meadows of pretense.

As if something had been achieved.  Relatively speaking, that might have been, however now, Humanity as a whole, has reached those same foothills.  It ran like a Herd to escape the rising tide of events.

That tide is continuing to rise.  Flood warnings are out all over the meadows of pretense.

“The Ark started moving,
a shifting with the tides.
The unicorns looked up
from the rocks as they cried.
The waters came down
sort of floating them away.
That’s why we’ve never seen a unicorn
to this very day.”

If we’ve been living our lives with a goal of “comfortable” in mind, avoiding anything “uncomfortable”, then NOW is the time to start getting “comfortable”, with everything we have avoided.   It takes claiming our own Willpower and the Sovereignty over our emotions, in order to do it.

Steep climbs, paths requiring personal and individual effort and expense of energy, only get “comfortable” after we’ve surmounted a few.

The National Debt of the US is representative of how much the emotional self indulgence of We the People cost.   As G.W Bush portrayed so well, the majority of us are weak emotionally.  We are only “comfortable” within controlled conditions.  When Life flows outside of those conditions, we throw emotional fits.

Let’s face it.   “We the People” just don’t happen to know how to feel “comfortable” with Life outside the little boxes comprised of our coping skills.

Kinda’ reminds me of when I was young.  I wasn’t “comfortable” in a lake or the ocean.  It felt squishy and was inhabited by creatures that liked to nibble on my toes.     If I ever wanted to feel “comfortable” around lakes or oceans, I only had two options.  Option A: sell the idea to encase all the lakes and oceans in concrete, making them more like swimming pools then natural bodies of water.  Option B: change my own perspectives and attitudes.

Change ‘it’ or change the way I related to ‘it’, those were my choices.   I was young then, I hadn’t grown up, so I simply whined about how uncomfortable I was.   I ’saw’ Love as catering to the needs of my “inner child”.    And all I can say now, is that if our “inner child”  still hasn’t grown up, then continued denial of accountability for it,  isn’t the ~easy~ way to go.

Unless the IRS decides to recognize that child as a dependent,  it’s time that child grew up.  Liberty and Freedom only come to those of us who are willing and prepared to accept the responsibilities of them.

{{tumel}} recently asked about the significance, if any, of the current eclipse activity.    I grew up knowing it as the “once in a blue moon” occurance of two full moons in one month.  The second full moon, known as the blue moon, being thought of as “lucky”.  Make a wish…

The significance of the event is to convey “new beginnings”.

This particular time,  Humanity is beginning an ‘ascent’ of sorts on an evolutionary spiral.  It has to do with awareness and consciousness.  Ever so often awareness expands.  It is all part of a natural order of experience.

I can compare it to when we were little.  First we become aware we have fingers.  Next  we become aware that we can move them.  Then we usually put them in our mouths, further expanding our awareness to include taste of fingers.  Eventually we become aware of our feet and toes.

From the moment we are born, life is an adventure in further expanding our awareness.  We learn how to manipulate and animate our parts.  We become aware that we can initiate action; we can move on our own.    After we learn how to hold our head up, we look up and ….become aware of how much more there is to discover.  This leads to our initiating action to stand, walk, climb, etc.

One thing we can count on, is once we discover there is more to Life, we go after it.  And that is what we are doing now.

I guide to take a deep look at our standards and our ideals.  For if our ideals and standards are limited, so will we be limited as individuals and, from now on, so will our lives be limited likewise.

A very beloved friend of mine happened to witness my cat enjoying himself within recent history.  My cat had caught a shrew and was busy munching away.   He was being True to his nature; the shrew to its.  Death/birth, is all part of a natural process.  Life in action.    Beauty is in the eye of the beholder after all.

She expressed she had to turn her back.  I smiled and laughed, saying something about being “squeamish”.    Her reply was that there was nothing wrong with being a girl.

This is the sort of thing I mean about questioning our standards.

What does being a “girl” have to do with being emotionally limited when it comes to embracing life?  Seems to me “boys” display the same inner nature with the same consistency.   Our limits are something we all share in common, because it is the way our cultures have raised us to be.  Nothing sexist about it.

The dysfunctional “boy” counterpart to the dysfunctional “girl”, plays the role of taking physical dominion by force, in order to protect dysfunctional “girl” from everything that makes her “uncomfortable”.

These were our “old” patterns of behavior and they are now obsolete.  The more we try to play into these roles,  the more miserable we’re going to get.

Over the past 15 years, I’ve been gnashing my teeth in frustration as quite a few of us rushed off to some group that supports dis-associative disorders.   Most of these groups have been fluffy bunny groups, promoting lala lands of heaven on earth, devoid of everything that makes us feel uncomfortable.  Basically, a “heaven” on earth that resembles something along the lines of a sanitarium with padded walls.  A “gated” community, one that has “boundaries”, that keep everything “negative” out.

It’s what we do.  Being unable to cope with life, we imagine living in a “heaven”,  where we don’t have to face anything that makes us feel uncomfortable.

Behind our feelings of discomfort are emotional “wounds” we have not addressed.  We haven’t loved ourselves enough to seek healing.  All we’ve been seeking for the most part, has been to escape, to dis-associate our selves from our experiences of emotional pain and suffering.

We have sought to wipe out the parts of our realities we didn’t know how to cope with and, in so doing, detach and distance ourselves from the ‘parts’ of ourselves that are suffering, mentally and/or emotionally. All these ‘parts’ of our lives that we thought we had successfully distanced ourselves from, are now all rushing back into our lives, demanding attention.   Humanity is being slammed in ways that are bringing up these old wounds.    It’s definitely not a time to be squeamish about addressing bleeding hearts.

My energy is focused on helping as many of us as are open, to start genuinely understanding the “talk”, walking it and, healing wounds along the way.