This is an inner weather report. After a month’s rest from July’s pounding waves, there are some more waves coming in that are going to trigger more shifts. These shifts are to further our alignment process, setting us into position to move into the “new” lives we have chosen.
I guess our problem is, that a lot of us are clueless to the “new” lives we chose and, have been expecting something altogether different then what will be, similar to Michael Jackson and David Carradine.
I do not know what events will show up in all our individual lives but what I do know is that these events are going to create emotional waves that will build to a crescendo by the end of the week. By the weekend, inner alarm bells will be ringing to address the issues. It will not be a wise time to sleep through the alarm or hit the snooze button.
The issue Is and Will Be, Accountability. As all the events set into motion will be effects of us choosing to live in denial of it.
Unfortunately for a lot of Us, the Standard of Accountability the issues surround, is one that is relatively unknown and not even usually considered.
But in the future, it most likely will be!
That’s the “good” news, meaning pleasant and wise way of looking at events.
No, it’s not pleasant to find ourselves standing knee deep in our own *poo* but the discovery does lead to desire to start cleaning our acts up.
The Accountability that I’m writing of and about, is the Accountability for the use of Willpower. Most especially the use of it by those of us in denial of our own.
Accountability simply hasn’t been on the list of qualities we have chosen to value, most especially in the areas of Be-ing mentally and emotionally self disciplined, self governing and self nurturing. The events that will be manifesting/transpiring, will be to align us with the consequences of our choices in these areas.
For over a decade, I have chosen to withdraw all of my energetic support from any and all of our irrational wishes of a fuzzy bunny lalaland of harps and clouds. I have been trying to convey in as kind a way as possible, that the Divine Feminine is not a personification of emotional weakness. It is the Personification of a Loving Will.
We could have chosen ~easy~ but most of us didn’t. We chose ~easy~ street. Which is ~easy~ to get to.
Just not ~easy~ to live there.
“Have we been self disciplined or have we depended upon the self discipline of others?”
That is THE key question.
For if we have been self diciplined, responsible and accountable, then times that require it are ~easy~ and if we haven’t been self disciplined, responsible and accountable, then times that require it aren’t.
This is a time of opportunity.
An opportunity of self development.
And for those of us who have never required, nor expected it out of ourselves before, the sooner we do, the sooner our lives will show improvement and progress.
Sometimes the journey is gentle; sometimes it is steep. The only time it is ~easy~ is when we know we have within Us, whatever the next step takes.
What I ’see’ in my minds’ eye, I liken to a mountain. A lot of Us made it to the foothills over a decade ago. A few of us continued ascending up the mountain, facing the steep climbs when they appeared upon our paths. A great number of us chose to stop there, worn out by the hike to the foothills and, stayed behind to frolic in the meadows of pretense.
As if something had been achieved. Relatively speaking, that might have been, however now, Humanity as a whole, has reached those same foothills. It ran like a Herd to escape the rising tide of events.
That tide is continuing to rise. Flood warnings are out all over the meadows of pretense.
“The Ark started moving,
a shifting with the tides.
The unicorns looked up
from the rocks as they cried.
The waters came down
sort of floating them away.
That’s why we’ve never seen a unicorn
to this very day.”
If we’ve been living our lives with a goal of “comfortable” in mind, avoiding anything “uncomfortable”, then NOW is the time to start getting “comfortable”, with everything we have avoided. It takes claiming our own Willpower and the Sovereignty over our emotions, in order to do it.
Steep climbs, paths requiring personal and individual effort and expense of energy, only get “comfortable” after we’ve surmounted a few.
The National Debt of the US is representative of how much the emotional self indulgence of We the People cost. As G.W Bush portrayed so well, the majority of us are weak emotionally. We are only “comfortable” within controlled conditions. When Life flows outside of those conditions, we throw emotional fits.
Let’s face it. “We the People” just don’t happen to know how to feel “comfortable” with Life outside the little boxes comprised of our coping skills.
Kinda’ reminds me of when I was young. I wasn’t “comfortable” in a lake or the ocean. It felt squishy and was inhabited by creatures that liked to nibble on my toes. If I ever wanted to feel “comfortable” around lakes or oceans, I only had two options. Option A: sell the idea to encase all the lakes and oceans in concrete, making them more like swimming pools then natural bodies of water. Option B: change my own perspectives and attitudes.
Change ‘it’ or change the way I related to ‘it’, those were my choices. I was young then, I hadn’t grown up, so I simply whined about how uncomfortable I was. I ’saw’ Love as catering to the needs of my “inner child”. And all I can say now, is that if our “inner child” still hasn’t grown up, then continued denial of accountability for it, isn’t the ~easy~ way to go.
Unless the IRS decides to recognize that child as a dependent, it’s time that child grew up. Liberty and Freedom only come to those of us who are willing and prepared to accept the responsibilities of them.
Sue Ann Edwards
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August 30th, 2009 - 12:23 pm
You have a very intriguing blog, I enjoyed those posts I read. There is an element of synergy with a new blog I’ve recently created to help people make a big change long term by changing just 1% a day, hence the name of the blog: “1% A Day”
Each day I’m posting a new excercise for people to practice just a tiny amount that day and hopefully continue to practice.
Oftentime working on change ALL AT ONCE is too much for many people. It’s my hope that offering a smoother, gentler, more in-balance suggestion may be able to reach more people for the greater good.
It’s just one of my ways of giving back…
Anthony Donnelly
http://1percentaday.wordpress.com
August 31st, 2009 - 12:25 pm
Greetings Anthony!
Welcome, welcome!
Thank you for dropping in and introducing yourself.
It really is wonderful to see another one of us taking up the yoke, to help pull us all, out of the ruts of our own making.
Looking to outer authority figures to act in accordance with our interests wasn’t and isn’t a wise move. We CAN take back the power of our own lives.
But it’s done like you said, one bit at a time. Like eating one of the 72 ounce Texas steaks, it can only be done one bite at a time, in order to avoid it all coming back up. Digesting is one thing; regurgitating another.
You may enjoy this one:
http://sueannedwards.wordpress.com/2008/09/10/how-to-makeup-my-mind/
Intriguing?
{{grinning}}
just wait a week…
September 2nd, 2009 - 9:42 am
what I have been feeling is so much emotion, like when I read about the cubs returning into the wild, such strong emotions come to me, and other times as well these last few days, and I see this emotion in some others around me as well, it just feels like it is stronger, or maybe on a brink, or on the surface maybe. It made want to see when the next full moon was due.
September 2nd, 2009 - 9:53 am
and I began a new job last Friday, and today I am feeling I don’t want to return to it…ugggh…..I am feeling I should just wait to find another one until all these emotions feel more settled.
September 2nd, 2009 - 11:23 am
You’re already picking up on the wave! And like I said, this is inner weather. It’s coming UP from within us.
And the next full moon is due this Friday. That’s why all these waves of emotion…energy in motion…are building like layers, creating intensity.
Things are being set up for next week, when things really get animated. From now until mid month things are really going to be unsettling unless we’ve already made the shift to being inner stabilized and even then, it takes vigilance.
We’re in one of those cycles where a lot of dust is going to be stirred up because of information bubbling to the surface.
Our Intuition is telling us changes are imminent and we all have a subconscious fear of change. Our 1st reaction is usually to resist, to deny that change is needed.
What is happening on the inside of all of us is being mirrored in President Obama’s agenda. He campaigned on “change” and ever since he took office, his goals of change have been blocked. Health Care being the biggest glaring example.
After this month of September, “we’ll see”…
said the blind man.
When I haven’t been particularly industrious in cleaning my kitchen, I’ll have a tendency to keep it dark. To not turn on as many lights, so I won’t have to see what all I have been avoiding cleaning up.
In my head and heart I ~know~ keeping my kitchen dark doesn’t change a thing. The mess is still there even though I can’t see it. I simply don’t have it hitting me glaringly in the face all the time. It’s easier to AVOID dealing with it that way. (smiling)
I’ve said before, “the only way to overlook the obvious is not to look”…because I ~know~ the easiest way not to have to look at something, is to hide it in the dark.
And to be en-LIGHT-ened, is to dispel the Darkness.
Yippee Enlightenment! Holy shit! Look what the dark has been hiding!
Yippee! I remembered to buy light bulbs! Damn! My kitchen is a mess!
Listen to your Intuition. Wait. There’s more info to come. The time to act is after we know what actions to take in what direction. Situations are in flux right now.
Another new job might be the way. If that be so, then you’ll definitely know it, because it will be what is the responsible and accountable thing to do for yourself.
There may also be something else that changes. Like something that would trigger a change in how you felt about the job you just got.
No matter what happens, you will act with Integrity, which is what genuinely counts.
As you sense the waves of emotion rolling through don’t try to deny or resist unless you knowingly choose to create more emotional intensity. Breathe, that’s it. In through your nose, out through your mouth. 3 times. By the 3rd, you’ll sense emotions calming down.
Just allow the emotions to come up. Feel what they are and Understand they have NOTHING to do with anything external or outside of you. Just feel them don’t act on them…yet.
What we are now in the middle of creating is Forgiveness and Acceptance but that is the message of my next post. In the meantime..remember to ask.
“I AM asking for Grace in my Life.”
September 3rd, 2009 - 6:20 pm
thank you so much for this Sueann:) ((many hugs))
I will listen to my intuition
I will act with integrity
I will open myself to changes that might come
I will feel
I will stand under this full moon with my eyes closed and my arms spread wide
September 3rd, 2009 - 6:35 pm
and I will ask that there be no fear:)
September 3rd, 2009 - 10:34 pm
{{{{{HUGS}}}}}
If We truly allow ourselves to feel it, there is only fear of the unknown. That’s IT, in a nut shell.
After change comes to light, then there is no unknown anymore. There is simply ~new~.
We’re reorienting right now and this reorientation will proceed throughout the month of September.
Wave comes in and deposits us on a beach. Just as we’ve managed to start trying to put some semblance of a life in order on this new beach, the tide comes in and we’re swept out to sea again in a froth of surf.
We are not yet on the beaches that will be our ~new~ homes. Adjustments and course corrections are to come.
Maybe we’re still in the surf and haven’t made it to any shore yet? Maybe we’ve made it to shore on the correct island but need to take a walk to the other side to find our beach home?
Reality is shifting.
September 4th, 2009 - 1:02 pm
I see myself as this wave that touched the beach, if only for a moment,:) and now again I am in the surf, but not far out, just in the surf thats breaks before the beach, and for the moment I am liking it here. I feel like I am still adapting.
I see you not in this ocean, Sueann, but more like the wind or the medium that creates the waves.
September 4th, 2009 - 1:40 pm
and brings them to shore:)
September 7th, 2009 - 9:01 pm
Feeling better?
If you would look in an ephemeris, you would find that as of Friday, (the full moon), Mercury was becoming stationary, as it got ready to turn retrograde.
Friday and Saturday were especially ’spacey’ days for all of us. Now we’re in a resolution cycle. Adjustments will be made in our thinking, so by the end of September, we’ll be all straightened out.
September 8th, 2009 - 8:56 am
I am feeling much better now Sueann,
thank you. I feel I needed to be there, in the surf that breaks to feel the waves coming in, going out.
At times I did feel myself looking for air, or holding on to a rock to make myself still but I took the breaths you mentioned and when I did, found myself again able to go with the flow of these little pulls and pushes.
I am feeling now though like going for a very long swim:) and when I looked at the sky yesterday after noon I saw the clouds broken up into flutters that felt like calmness.
I do have a wonder though Sueann:)), maybe 2 or 3 even:) but I will wait on these until after my swim.
September 17th, 2009 - 6:00 am
since I asked for no fear, it has come to me, in little different ways:) I have looked at it though, spoke with it:) and realized it is not the unknown that I fear, but the known. I fear (a little) the known, so I feel I must somehow prepare myself for it, how I would respond to this known, before it becomes truly conscious to me? Does this make sense Sueann? is it a type of control?
September 17th, 2009 - 6:17 am
like, an example, I no longer go to doctors, because I no longer wish them to tell me what type of health I am in, I used to go, because I feared not knowing, now I don’t fear the not knowing, because I know myself what type of health I am in, but this took time, this going from this type of not knowing fear to no fear of this. I prepared myself in a way for it. It feels almost like a backward kind of thing? I go back before I go forward?:)
September 17th, 2009 - 9:11 am
You always come up with great things when you ponder!
{{{hugs}}}
Usually, what we know, is what we have experienced before. That is how and why we say we know it.
It’s what has been called “living in the past”. What we ‘think’ we know, is based on past experience.
Now we throw in the wrench that we “all create our own reality” and it immediately invalidates past experience. That’s how patterns are set: using the past to create the future.
At one time you looked to an outer authority to tell you what your body already knew. Then you changed the pattern and began developing an understanding of your own body’s needs.
Before, you surrendered to an outer authority to translate what your body was saying. Up until the time you learned to commune with your own body. The Doctor acted as a translator, translating in terms he knew. It was simply a matter of learning your body’s language and as soon as you did, you no longer required the services of a translator.
I had to stop for a moment and remember what it is like for the majority of us. Unlike what I’ve read coming out of some of us, I would never promote or encourage not going to the Doctor.
If I have a purple appendage, I’m going to the Doctor. If I feel bloody awful, I’m going to the Doctor.
I’m going to receive whatever aid and assistance is available, to help my body deal with the results of my creations. 3rd dimensional tool, 4th dimensional tool, nth dimensional tool, a tool is a tool and has been created for our use.
I’ve been observing a particular generation, for when this generation started being born, society started coming out with “antibacterial” everything. Sterilizing the world became popular with soccer moms and suv’s. This generation is also one of the 1st ones to experience “recommended” vaccinations.
While no studies have ever been done as to how long it takes for our natural immune system to develop to maturity. I’m guessing that’s around the age of 2. Or what happens when the immune system is changed, via immunizations, prior to maturity…does it ever mature?
I’m not that up on biology but I seem to remember something about grafting plants to create hybrids and wonder about that associated with all the shots given prior to our natural immune system’s development.
I’m watching the health care issue in my country. I wonder if the issue would be so polarized if I shared to count on everyone getting sick? Has all the “healthy lifestyle” stuff of the past 2 decades done anything to address how psychologically ill-at-ease we are?
What if you went to a Doctor sometime and they AGREED with you? How would you feel then?
Imagine conflict based on past experiences or imagine cooperation and affirmation…it’s our choice.
There is a fear of getting sick and there is a fear of going to a doctor. They are connected but not the same.
{{{hugs}}}
September 18th, 2009 - 9:56 am
I think the ones who address this, how we might be psychologically ill-at-ease are the ones who practice reiki, or energy healing before maybe prescribing drugs? to see what might be unbalanced within?
If I had a purple appendage I would go to a doctor too:) and clear my mind of worry and focus on a type of mind/body healing. My father did this:) he fell off a roof and had to be in traction for a month. Pins were put through his knee for this traction, and he got a very bad blood infection through the holes when this was done, so was put on strong experimental antibotics. He told me when he was laying there he didn’t want any tvs, or distractions, he wanted to become intune with his body, to heal it. He did it too:)
The two can work together:)
September 18th, 2009 - 9:59 am
though I think I might have asked for raw garlic first:)
September 19th, 2009 - 4:26 pm
Everything that has to do with “Reiki” or “energy healing” is “old” energy patterns. I would not recommend using such practices any longer. They will not accomplish desired results but will create a worsening of matters.
It hasn’t been mentioned, however, what I’m sensing is our tendency to Judge “illness” or “disease” in a negative way. Like we desire to negate the experiences.
And it is ~this~ attitude of Judgment and negation, that is the root cause of it all.
As Solomon said, “A straight stick, a crooked stick, a stick is still a stick.” And that can be said about a broken stick, too.
September 20th, 2009 - 8:21 am
Solomon
“Give Thy servant an understanding heart to judge Thy people and to know good and evil.”
when I read this, I see it as a wish from his heart. A wish to see both good and evil, not to judge, but to understand.
September 20th, 2009 - 11:16 am
If we could look upon experiences in Life as experiences of Souls, rather then simply physical objects, it would help.
Illness, sickness, disease…do not mean we have done something ~wrong~.
Uh…er…um…
It is not the experience but our relationship TO that experience that counts. Like the relationship your Dad chose was one of cooperation, rather then “fighting it”.
The reason why I say what I do about energy healing is because the very foundation of it is the pattern of “living off of other people’s energy”. For example, you could send me energy but I could not use it, because the energy would already have been qualified by your life stream. It would have an energetic signature that was all yours.
But by asking the Universe to send me energy, then that energy would be unqualified. It would come to me from within. When your Dad sought to go within, he tapped into his inter-dimensional Self.
Above all things Solomon sought Wisdom and you “hit the nail on the head” when you say he desired Understanding. We have to Desire TO Understand before we ever do.
We did not Desire to Understand 9-11. Our actions expressed Desires of Vengeance and Retribution, instead.
If we had Desired Understanding, then MAYBE we would have realized that pain is what caused 9-11. Mental, emotional and physical pain. The same kind of torturous pain we felt as a nation, was exactly the same kind of pain the perpetrators felt, that led them to taking such desperate actions.
One thing about Solomon though…he wrote he never could understand women. It is also written he took 100 wives.
Well, duh!
September 23rd, 2009 - 4:13 am
The reason why I say what I do about energy healing is because the very foundation of it is the pattern of “living off of other people’s energy”.
Like we might not trust we can do this ourselves, and so place the responsibily on someone else, to do this for us, when really what another does, we can do as well. So maybe the showing/guiding of how one might energy heal themselves would be more beneficial. Like that saying, showing one how to fish, instead of fishing for him:) and of which I am still guilty of! sometimes, with my children, but I am getting better:)
September 25th, 2009 - 1:02 pm
It’s much harder to teach someone to fish, then it is to simply just feed them. It takes summoning up the Patience and Tolerance within us, as well as, the Fortitude, to “bring lessons home”. Most often involving consequences.
We have an instinctual tendency to want to protect ourselves from consequences of our actions and choices. But it is in actually experiencing those consequences and understanding that they ARE consequences, that empowers our realization. It is also what transforms intelligence into wisdom.
Our kids, well…are our kids. Our responsibility as parents is to nurture them into adulthood. Keep them alive until then. Other then that, by law we need to provide food, clothing and shelter. We do not need to provide clothing from retail stores; we can go to Goodwill. We do not need to provide food they like, either.
My kids grow up knowing the difference between a privilege and a right. (smiling)
“The Lord help those who help themselves.”
Essentially this means that so long as we are unwilling and unbelieving, no amount of help is going to make any difference. No amount of energy from any outside source is going to nullify our creative will, directed towards disbelief and doubt.
We do not nor cannot heal another, that’s all Glamour. It’s only our individual Will, that will allow healing energy in, from within.
It does not matter how much water I pour down a sink that is clogged. No water is going to run through my pipes so long as the clog is there.
Trust always comes from Knowing. And no one else can Know for us.
The purpose for growing a tree that is laden ed with abundant fruit is to show how it is done. The purpose is NOT to provide an abundance of fruits for others.
“I grew my tree, now you grow yours.”
The goal is to motivate and inspires us to turn inward and we won’t have any desire to do that, so long as we’re getting whatever we need from others.
Before we run, we learn to walk. While learning to walk we toddle, we stumble, we go boom on our behinds.
And we pick ourselves up and go on.
September 26th, 2009 - 10:24 am
Glamour = a form of magic
Magic = a form of illusion
Illusion = Maya
Maya = maya: maya (maayaa). Worldly illusion, mistaking the transient for the real; non-awareness of actuality, appearances masquerading as reality.
Mayan = ?
September 26th, 2009 - 11:28 am
rofl….I was just getting ready to write an e to you, when an e arrived, signaling a comment on my blog. We’re in sync!
Interesting connotation…”mayan” and “maya”.
According to the Mayan calender, 2012 is the date which two paths meet and come together once again, echoing a time in our history when the path separated and became two.
“The two who are one.”
Hmmm….where have I heard ~this~ sentiment applied recently? Oh yea, that’s right! “Two who are one”, meaning our Personality and our Soul integrating.
Seems to me we’re right on schedule! Soul integration has begun in earnest. Everything rooted in “maya”, meaning the illusion of separation, has begun to dissolve or shatter right out from under us. Like our “economy” with ~no~ sense of economy in it.
In order for “two” to become “one”, there can be NO concepts of separation anywhere. “Separate” and “whole” are contradictory ideas.
Like water CAN both freeze and boil, just not at the same time in the same place. If we exist as “separate”, then we are not “whole”. If we exist as “whole”, then we are not “separate”.
As a Species and a Planet, we have now all entered the phases of a process. We start the process believing ourselves to be separated from other dimensions, like ’spirit’ and by the time we’re through the process we know ourselves to be multidimensional beings.
“We are human and we are Divine, also.”
It’s ~t h e~ story of Hera-kles!
At least THREE times before now, has a Race of Man undergone this process of evolving. The “Mayans” were part of one of these groups.
In recent studies of DNA groups and histories, it has been revealed there was a “bottleneck” in history, that all our DNA can be traced back to the one group that made it through that “bottleneck”.
What’s the difference between a “bottleneck” and the meaning expressed by the idea of “getting a camel through the eye of a needle”? It means a tight fit either way.
The “eye of the needle” was a rock formation. In order to get camels through, the camels had to be unpacked of all their goods. Then the camel was walked through. After getting through, the camel was re-packed!
Right now, as a Whole, Humanity is behaving like a bunch of camels afraid of being unpacked. It’s that simple. We’ve gone through this process before, as a Race. We’ve simply never done it ~this~ way.
November 2nd, 2009 - 10:47 am
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