I’ve actually sat and thought about it for the past couple of days. {{{tumel}}} brought something to my Awareness…

the difference between the perception of a circle, as in going in circles and, the perception of a spiral, ascending ever onwards. That’s what’s happening right now. We, Humanity, are stepping up a level on that evolutionary spiral. It really is a great cause to CELEBRATE!!!!!!

But…

as {{tumel}} shared with me, many of us are being “seduced by the dark side”, as Yoda would say. “Oh, to go back to “the good ole days”.

And to that I’ve got to say:

Bah humbug. Go stuff it up your shorts. There has never been a GRANDER time to be alive!!!! We are pioneering expansions in AWARENESS. Conscious Awareness.

There’s a new slogan:

“Embrace the race.“

And it’s about Energy…new energy. Specifically, “Green Power”. The goal is coming up with *new* renewable types of Energy. Types that are NOT draining to resources. And the reward is the greatest wealth possible that our World has ever seen.

Entrepreneurs all around the world are “embracing the race”. There soon will be an explosion of ingenuity and inventiveness coming out of garages all over the place in the US alone. New technologies in all sorts of areas.

There IS NO “energy shortage”. There ARE shortages, however, when it comes to “old energy”. And these shortages will continue to accelerate. Desperation, if nothing else, fueling desires to “embrace the race”.

For Necessity is the Mother of INVENTION!

Inventions that have been blocked from coming into our Awareness for over 100 years.

Imagine after taking the plunge into materialism there would be a one of us that would desire giving up all the gadgets and toys and creature comforts? NOOOO!!!!!!! We’re going to have BOTH!!!! Gadgets, toys, creature comforts, FREELY AVAILABLE ENERGY and “save the planet” at the same time.

Piece of cake.

Ohhhh, I can *hear* the Doubt. But I *know* us as not many of us do.

My son often calls from college if he’s feeling anxious. And most often it’s the result of a behavior pattern I recognize. Do/did the same thing myself. Often.

I used to let the pile of laundry pile up until it became a massive job of about 12 loads. Then do it all at once. “Tada! Look at me! Aren’t I capable! See what feats I can accomplish? See what mountains I can conquer?” And my son, sometimes finds himself procrastinating, too… So he calls me and I remind him of his pattern, our pattern, of doing this just to show ourselves how competent we are.

It has to do with motivation. And to those of us who enjoy experiences of achievement, we often let the ‘problem’ build, just to increase the intensity of the excitement to truly “heroic” proportions. The drama of it feeds our emotional addictions to drama.

So as we watch the ‘news’ and absorb the barrage of information being spun out, don’t “be seduced by the dark side”. The higher the price of a barrel of oil goes, the QUICKER and the FASTER, ALL of us are going to HAVE freely available energy.

There NEVER HAS BEEN a “good ole days”. So let the “old” go.

And embrace the race.

This is an except from the “Bridge to Freedom” Journals, dating 1935-1937.

“By definition, the Elohim are great Beings of Love & Light, whose co-operative endeavors are the building of our Universes. Each One has learned how to successfully use the Creative Power of thought, feeling, spoken word and action, as “God” intended these Powers to be used from the very beginning of time.

Their evolution is through the Elemental Kingdom. El-e-mental, meaning “Mind of God’. (even energy, has to be 1st imagined) This is a story from the Elohim of Peace, whose name is Tranquility.

‘I was one among those Elementals Who followed the exact order of Creation. You have seen Universal Elemental Light filling in the atmosphere; those tiny electrons (quantum packets of light) seem to be going nowhere – just flitting hither and yon in the sunshine. You see, when one is first God-created, there is complete freedom to just enjoy one’s self.

That is where some folks get the idea of ‘heaven’ being a place of eternal enjoyment, rest and general “do-as-you-please” attitude. They remember backwards.

Long, long ago, I was one of these tiny Elementals, flitting hither and yon in My Universe; whenever I felt like it, attaching Myself to some Light Ray projected by some Being of Whom I was scarcely cognizant. At times, I rode upon a great beam of Light which was destined to become part of a Star or some other lovely God-creation. I had no responsibilities and no obligations.

Then, suddenly, one day there came a feeling within Me that I wanted to be a conscious part of Creation. When this takes place in anyone, it means that the activity of the First Ray is born within them – the WILL TO DO. So it was with me.

Then I sought out someone Whom I knew could tell Me just what to do and, when I had found such a one, I was told that, if I cared to go to a certain Nature Temple, I could learn how to build form – perhaps a flower. To do this, together with others of like intent. I had to learn to hold the thought-form shown to Us by the presiding Deva, Our Instructor. After enrolling Myself as a student in this Nature Temple, My first assignment was to build a five-petaled, yellow flower and I shall never forget it.

O, there must have been a couple of hundred of Us in the class – all quite as irresponsible as Myself. We could hear the beautiful music outside the Temple; the air was so lovely and fresh; the beautiful Beings of Light were passing through the atmosphere outside the windows, – and the holding of the pattern of that flower got so monotonous, I can tell you! However, the Deva just stood there and from Himself He externalized the pattern of this flower which We were to learn to create. He tried to catch Our thoughts and focus them upon that flower. But, I soon found that just the WILL TO DO was not enough – there must follow the other six “steps” of Creation to perfect the activity.

Then suddenly, PERCEPTION came into My mind and I thought – “Yes, this is a part of Creation” and I PERCEIVED, at least, what the Deva wanted Me to try to do. Up until that time, I just enjoyed the fragrance, the color and the symmetry of that form of that flower. I did not feel that I wanted to do anything more than that about it. As that feeling of PERCEPTION took possession within Me, I consciously tried. O, but that first form which I attempted to create was certainly a distorted one – it was sort of square; it did not have enough petals; nor did it have the right fragrance. Besides, just as soon as I took My attention away from it – the form was gone! Now, some in the class were still not very concentrated in their attention and were still “flitting around”. However, those of Us Who really meant business finally moved up to the front of the room, nearer the Deva.

Well, as We continued to absorb the instruction and tried again and again, finally, one day, the little yellow flower appeared in My hands and I was so happy! This time I had the right number of petals and the right fragrance for My flower but – my goodness! Just as I was about to present my flower to the Deva, one of the Archangels went by the window and My attention being drawn by His magnificent light, it left My flower for an instant. When I looked back at My hand – the flower was gone! Just a lack of concentration, you see!

Now these Devas do not speak at all. They give all Their instruction through radiation and Our Teacher Deva suggested to Us that if we wanted to create these flowers consciously, We could add beauty and perfection to a Springtime on some lovely planet which the Elohim in charge of that planet were to beautify for the blessing of an evolution of living Souls. As I thought of this, LOVE for My endeavor was born within Me. I felt that I wanted to make that little flower perfect enough, fragrant enough, beautiful enough and make it last long enough to really bless some part of life. That was the third aspect of Divinity – LOVE – you see! Then I forgot Myself and the distraction of Those who were going by outside; then I really wanted to create that flower and I stayed with it!

What happened then? I received an assignment. The Devas do not assign one to the task of even becoming an apple blossom until They know you will stay with that task long enough to complete it. In My new assignment, I think there were about seven hundred of Us directed to adorn one big tree. Incidentally, the yellow flower I was to create does not grow on your earth – nor does such a tree. perhaps, one day it shall.

Here came another lesson which I did not learn at once. Our Teacher reminded Us that when We went to that planet with the Great Deva of the tree to be formed, We would see all different kinds of trees. He warned Us to watch and see that Our individual flower to be created did not become just like that which we saw on some other shrub or tree. I forgot his admonition and Mine did! I saw pink flowers, blue ones and white ones and, by the time I was through looking at them all. I had nothing definite of My Own in mind – and therefore no manifestation.

Then I learned the fourth lesson – the PURITY of holding to the Divine pattern which had been given me in the beginning. When We finally went back to Our Nature Temple ’schoolroom’, none of Us Who had ‘lost out’ was at all proud of His accomplishments. You see, Those in charge always prepare more Elementals then They know will be needed for a certain creation and, therefore, the creation was completed by those who could do the work. I did not volunteer so quickly for the next experience, I can tell you! However, within Myself, I determined that I would hold the pattern of that yellow flower until I had brought it forth in perfection.

Finally, I did not even have to volunteer. My Teacher Deva, in mercy, said to Me, one day: “All right – you may go and try again”. This time I closed My eyes, My mind and My attention to everything but to the becoming of that yellow flower. Yet, there remained even more for remember – CONSTANCY – for I allowed My petals to fall before Springtime was over! I had to learn the fifth activity of CONSTANCY and CONCENTRATION until the Deva called me home. Because of my lack of CONSTANCY, after the premature falling of My petals, I was home a whole month before the others! I must tell you that I did not go into the Temple for quite a while – I walked up and down outside but I did not go in! At last, I had to go in – you know that! Whenever you are and whatever you volunteer to do, you must finish it one day.

When We gathered again before the Deva in the Nature Temple, I was seated far back in the last row. I was small of stature and I thought I would not be too easily seen there. Thinking to Myself, I said: “I shall never go out again. I’ll just stay right here”. However, next We were taught the lesson of RHYTHM.

Here I learned that I had to hold the purity of form and that I had to stay at My post until I was released by the Being Who had sent Me forth. That was CONSTANCY. Then, amazingly, I learned that I had to go every Spring! My goodness! I thought going once was a major achievement, but learned the lesson of RHYTHM – yellow flower – yellow flower – yellow flower – over and over again, each and every Spring. I shall not attempt to tell you how many Springtimes I became a yellow flower. Doing it once was a novelty; even a dozen times was fun; but every Spring seemed to Me like a long, steady, relentless “grind”! Obedience! Obedience! Obedience! to the end!

The last step to learn in this process of Creation was to HOLD THE PEACE. The last time the Deva told Me that I was going to be a yellow flower again – I nearly lost the whole course!!!! You see, in the meantime, others of My friends had become beautiful trees, shrubs and other lovely creations but I was still a little, tiny, yellow flower. So, you see, I had to learn to HOLD THE PEACE – PEACE which I became Myself – mind you – in a far distant scheme! So, if you are one of those “little yellow flowers”, learn to HOLD YOUR PEACE! Who knows what anyone’s use of free-WILL may do?

At last, on this final trip, I just let go! I really did! I thought: “If God Wills it, I shall be this blossom for Eternity!” That was My last trip! That absolute surrender gave Me My release and, that time, when I returned to My Deva in the Nature Temple, he crowned My service of the ages – AGES I SAID!- with Victory! Then I was graduated into the Devic Kingdom.

Now, proceeding along these “seven steps” of activity is the way by which the Elohim expand Their consciousness from an Elemental Being to a Great Builder of Form; it is the way by which the tiny Cherubim become great Devas of light and, passing through those “steps” also, the spiritually unawakened Soul eventually awakens and becomes an Ascended Being of Love and Light.

There is no escape from the following of these “steps” anywhere. Some natures are such that they accept and follow those “steps” quickly and some take a longer time to accomplish. Believe Me, I know! I think I was the slowest pupil of all the groupings of Elementals with Whom I started out but, one thing I learned (if nothing else) was to HOLD MY PEACE and abide in the Wisdom of Creative Law!

For the Kindness and the Courtesy of your attention and for your Love, I thank you! Will you remember always, please, that PEACE IS A POWER! I – Who have passed the way of evolution before you – I Am yours to command! I leave you with my Blessings. May all your Creations be perfect; your ‘flowers’ beautiful and all your endeavors successful in His Name! Thank you and good morning!”

For over a year now I’ve been looking at something presented to me in my Mind’s eye. That’s the best way I know how to describe the experience. I can ’see’ it but I don’t *know* it, yet. I haven’t a feel for the understanding.

“IT” came to me over a year ago. Investigating Tesla for research on one of my husband’s projects brought “IT” to me and like all the rest of the dubious blessings of *knowing*, we can’t get rid of it once we *know*. I wasn’t exactly comfortable with the experience of actually UNDERSTANDING Mr. Tesla as a person; ‘what’ made ‘him’ the way he was…the experiences he had throughout his life. I didn’t EVEN want to be TRYING to wrap my mind around his research but there I was…

Then “IT” came. “IT” came 1st in the understanding that every single element listed on our Periodic chart of elements is the same thing: Light. And whether this Light appeared as one element or another, was a creation of 3 magnetic fields operating on a quantum level.

Like I said…over a year ago…

And last night I had a conversation with my husband, sharing with him that I was trying to wrap my mind around something and it was a real doosy. It was really messing with my head and remarked about if it messed with my head what would it likely be for others? Then told him what “IT” was.

His response that he understood it, encouraged me, so here “IT” is…

“IT” is the nature of Reality.

Reality is defined by changeless-ness. The fact that Reality does NOT change, is what ACTUALLY “makes” it REALITY. Every that that DOES change, is an APPEARANCE , only. That’s why a Life built upon recognition of Reality is secure, while one built on Appearances, is not.

Bless us one and all.

Love,

Sue Ann

I feel like Winnie the Pooh being carried upstairs behind Christopher Robin, banging his head on every step.” – {{simon}}

I got so tickled at the imagery, it brought smiles to my face all night long. Then *this* morning, I remembered this pic…

“I glimpsed Oneness with the other people in the room and almost collapsed in floods of tears at the beauty of it. But I held back. 1) Because I’m a guy, 2) Because I’m British, and 3) Because I thought some of the other people in the room would be freaked out.

So today I’m carrying that emotion round with me, just below the surface. I’ve looked at it and I can see where it comes from: it’s from the utter effort and frustration of trying to measure up to the expectations of myself and others day after day for year after year after year. It’s despair at the constant striving. From time to time, for a few days, I can give it up. I can see through that illusion about the weight of the world. But I always go back down the path to pick the weight up again.” – {{simon}}

For a moment, you realized your own Oneness with Spirit and in that moment, you realized everyone else’s oneness with their Spirit, too, that same Spirit that’s within ‘you’.  You *knew* it.  All the Pure Love of Spirit you sensed most likely felt overwhelming, especially in light of the fact that you were trying not to reveal it to anyone.   Why?

Because Intimacy is one of our BIGGEST issues!

Now…

By the Law of Attraction, we WILL reap as we sow.   So what are your own beliefs and feelings about being ’sensitive’?  Not ‘booohoo’ emotionally insecure sensitive, AWARE sensitive ?  Because this is what will be reflected back to you.  I’d bet money those beliefs and feelings have changed a great deal, especially over the last year.

You were afraid other people would respond the same way people had responded before.  That’s a prime example of us ‘living in the past’.  So what happened, is you experienced the same thing as you’ve felt before.  I bet upon talking to Sally, she’d tell you NOT TO DO THAT AGAIN.  To give  the group a chance to reflect your own Divinity back to you.

Sure, they may be ‘put off’ at 1st but how will any of us ever learn if we’re all too afraid to show how it is done, when it comes to being embracing of our own selves?

“Group consciousness” is “safe”.  “Mass consciousness” is “unsafe”.  There is a difference and it is in this difference that both you and Visionary are having your dilemmas and challenges.  Basically, in group consciousness, the individual is cherished as it is recognized as precious.  It is based upon Willing cooperation and being Real.  Mass consciousness, on *this* planet,  is based on conformity, the mass sucking all individuality out of each one of us.  It is based upon competing realities as to what  perceptions are going to rule the mass.

Right NOW, Group consciousness has “taken over” our World, and is herding our Mass consciousness like lemmings .  This is being done from the inside, out, through understanding and practical application of Universal Law (quantum physics)

The most Loving thing we can do is disconnect from our mass consciousness but most of us are so linked into it we don’t know how.

Ponder it for a moment…no matter how much recognition and validation we EVER received, it NEVER made any difference to how we REALLY felt about ourselves.  It was like an experience of temporarily lifting a balloon off the floor.  The minute the support is gone, the balloon drops back onto the floor.  The ONLY way our balloon is going to stay off the floor, is to change what’s inside the balloon.

Our Mass consciousness is like a bunch of hydrogen filled balloons.  Hydrogen = “1″ in atomic weight.  Group Consciousness is like a bunch of helium filled balloons.  Helium – “2″ in atomic weight.  It’s the difference between being a stick in a teepee and a pillar with other pillars.

{{{hugs}}}

Winnie the Pooh was the very 1st book I was ever given as a child and it still holds a very precious place in my heart.

In a recent conversation, on my blog, something obvious was played out.

“Agnost”, which means “not knowing” showed up and expressed: I Know Not. And insisted that “not knowing” be considered “knowledge”, in declaring: Because I Know Not, there Is Not.

“Gnost” which means “to know” responded by saying: OK…I understand. I understand the reality of being a ‘Not’head, too. Been there. Done that. But to declare “not knowing” to be any sort of *knowledge* is to express senselessness…an authority on “not knowing”, (rolling my eyes).

So I’m now bringing this page up and posting it…for those of us who also seek “to know”. And for those of us who seek “to know not”, in deep Respect, I acknowledge for ‘you’, it Is Not. For the Blind cannot see and the deaf cannot hear. But also don’t have the license to insist all others live so sensory challenged in self development.

“Thinking” to me is a process, a process of reasoning. Reasoning itself is a process, too. It is a process of adding one idea together with another without forming any contradictions in the process. This ability to make sense is common to one and all, that’s why it used to be called “common sense”.

So where does that leave “know-ledge” based on NOT “know-ing”?

Knowing

I asked my son to listen to one of the latest messages of sharing,
then asked for his comments.

“It sure sounds complicated Mom. It doesn’t sound simple. `Energy
balance’…? Why not come right out and say feeling needy?”

“What you’re hearing is an expression of distance, Honey. That’s
why so much emphasis is being placed on feeling. Because most of us
are generally distanced as far away from acknowledging our genuine
feelings as we can get. What most of us feel is not coming from our
Hearts, but from our guts. And we deal with these gut level
feelings in one of two ways, I’ve observed.

There’s our pattern of detaching ourselves from our feelings and
escaping into our mentality. It’s where a lot of our analytical
tendencies are coming from. I notice things like aggression and
anger on the rise and the tones of the popular music, to see what it
is we’re avoiding. What feelings we’re keeping locked inside, using
mental gymnastics and pursuits, as exercises in distraction.
There’s a lot of concentration on virtual reality going on and very
little concentration on improving coping skills.”

“That’s why you are the way you are about video games aren’t you
Mom?”

“Yes, to a point. I didn’t tell you I wouldn’t allow video games.
I would just make you unplugged from them every so often when your
social skills started suffering. You’re my math and engineering
child. Abstract concepts come easy for you.

As your Mother, my goal was well balanced. When you showed signs of
impatience and were quick to anger at your sister’s annoyance, I
would tell you to unplug for a week and read a book. Reading the
book activated the other side of your brain, your imagination. You
get too right brained, I direct you to the left. Just like when
Angela gets too left, I direct her to the right. The goal is
balanced. Well balanced.

This running away from our emotions into our mentality is like
hiding the dirty litter box behind a door. We don’t have to
acknowledge it’s full but, the smell still permeates everything.
We’re not facing our emotions but the emotions are still very much
present.

The other pattern we use is one of simply indulging ourselves in our
feelings, never mind knowing what those feelings are and why we’re
feeling them. Emotional self indulgence.

If we didn’t indulge ourselves in emotions below the waistline, then
chances are, we wouldn’t have so many issues with how far those
waistlines are expanding. Maybe if we called them wastelines, then
it would become clear what so many of us keep doing to ourselves.

Emotions and feelings from our gut level are not Loving emotions.
And it’s these emotions that we keep feeding ourselves. Emotions
that are not Loving, nor nurturing. The more we nurture these denser
emotions, the more we feel them. The more we feel them, the more we
feel we need nurturing. It is a cycle of neediness. And one of the
rules of the game is that there never will be enough.”

“Enough of what?”

“Enough of whatever. It doesn’t matter. It can’t be enough, for if
it ever was, then we wouldn’t find ourselves in need.

Reminds me of the new Lime Coke. Have you had one?”

“Yes. I know what it does.”

“Yeah, the lime is an aftertaste. You drink more Coke to kill the
aftertaste and end up with more of an aftertaste. You can drink the
whole bottle and still end up thirsty for something to kill the
aftertaste. Perfect treat for Halloween, a drink that leaves you
thirsty after drinking it.

Of the two patterns, the emotionally indulgent one is the most
draining. It usually just goes on and on and on, one guilt trip
after another. Which is one of the main reasons why so many of us
use the other pattern. To make ourselves immune to those of us
using this one.

You and Angela are good examples of the patterns. Male/female. One
lives in denial of emotions and the other wallows in it. You’ve
just got a vulture of a Mom that won’t tolerate the use of either
unhealthy pattern in my house.”

“Why? Isn’t that being kind of controlling, Mom?”

“If I don’t teach you what Respect IS, then you won’t know how to be
Respectful to others. Neither of the emotional patterns I mentioned
are Respectful of others. And yes, you may just chalk it up to
being a Condition. If I’m not being treated with Respect in my own
home, you’re going to hear about it. Chances are, so will the
neighbors.”

“How is it Disrespectful?”

“Because neither pattern Respects our emotions as our emotions.
One pattern detaches in order to avoid claiming them. The other
simply blames every emotion experienced, on someone or something
else.

The one thing that would help both, is the one thing that both
avoid.”

“What’s that?”

“Sovereignty. Respecting and Honoring our emotions as our
emotions. Then and only then, are we empowered to start governing
them. Choose to feed ourselves emotions that are Loving and
nurturing instead of those that aren’t.

Your textbook for that college Health class you took called it being
Self Nurturing and listed it as one of the requirements for being
considered mentally and emotionally healthy. Research studies have
found the link between wellness and being self nurturing in our
attitudes.

The neediness, the draining of resources, physical resources, mental
resources and emotional resources, in order to maintain the feeding
cycle.., that’s what was meant by `energy balancing`.”

“Everybody in need and fighting over pieces of a pie, instead of
claming Sovereignty, being self nurturing and increasing the size of
the pie?”

“You got it. Start balancing the energy. Make pie bigger. Instead
of fighting over pieces.”

“What’s this word mean?”

“Which one?”

“Gnost. What’s that all about?”

“It’s a term that’s been used before historically. `Gnost’
means `knowing’.”

“Well, why didn’t they just say that?”

“You’d have to ask them. Maybe they didn’t `know’?”

“That’s funny Mom.”

“I didn’t mean it to be funny but yes, I see the humor in the
situation. Been there. Done that. `We shall see, said the blind
man’. Same thing.

Jason, I know the word, because I know some Greek and I studied the
esoteric texts. `Gnost’ and `agnost’. `To know’ and `to know
not’. Both come from the root word gnosis, which means Knowledge,
but this knowledge isn’t the head kind. This Knowledge is an inner
Knowing. Ancients Greeks used to call it an Intuitive Knowing.
It’s the Knowing that comes from our Hearts. Gnost is when
Understanding sinks in.

We Understand because we Know. I taught you to be Heart centered.
To believe in what you Know and not dishonor it in favor of what
someone else said they thought they knew. I’ve hammered Sovereignty
into your head like a drill sergeant since you were little Hon.
It’s part of what makes you `different’.”

“Thanks Mom.”

“I didn’t miss the sarcasm.”

“It did make it difficult when it came to relating to kids my age.”

“I know it did. I went through it, too. It’s getting better isn’t
it? Now that you’re in college and around others that are focused
in self development?”

“Yes, yes it is.”

“Well, it’s going to get easier, too. For a lot of us. We’re
going to have more company on the play ground real soon. I don’t
know how big the wave is, but there is a massive wave of people that
just expanded to the level of claiming their Sovereignty. A great
many of us have recently chosen to reconnect and start opening our
Hearts. Now the healing can genuinely begin.

The grounding and anchoring is going on just like I suspected. This
is cause for celebration. We`re gonna’ have company.”

“I don’t understand Mom.”

“In old literature, what’s going on used to be
called ‘precipitation’. We Love an idea first in our Mind. This
mental Love is called Admiration. If we admire it long enough and
often enough and strong enough, then one day we’ll have become
comfortable enough with the idea to open our Hearts and, it will
start grounding and anchoring. We’ll start digesting it. We will
come to know the feeling the idea represents. Genuine Understanding
will literally sink in. Once it is anchored and grounded in our
Hearts, then we become able to live it. Expressing it in our daily
activities and responses to Life.

Grounding Gnost is like digesting one of those 72 ounce Texas
steaks. We can only do it one bite at a time and digest each bite,
allowing ourselves time to absorb it, otherwise, we’ll get sick.
What makes it even more of a challenge, is that most of us are
anorexic or bulimic when it comes to Gnost. It’s hard for us to
swallow, much less digest.

Just simply the word being used threw me for a loop. What threw me
was the context. It took me back almost 18 years. `Gnost`,
meaning `to know’ from the Greek word gnosis, meaning Knowledge,
Intuitive Knowing.”

“That would have helped.”

“They didn’t Know, Honey. It is this Knowing that many are now
opening up to Dear. It’s the Knowing that is now in the process of
precipitating. It’s comparable to the event of bringing down the
Berlin Wall but happening on a much more profound level. There is
great excitement and a sense of celebration as the wall tumbles.

The next thing that will happen is a realization of how much healing
work there is to be done. Like the realization of how horrid the
conditions were in East Germany and how much work and effort it was
going to take to bring East Germany up to the standards enjoyed by
West Germany.”

“Celebrate today for tomorrow reality is going to sink in.”

“Basically. Using the word Gnost is really insightful. For the
subject is Empowerment and claiming our Sovereignty. Being True to
what we Know in our Hearts. Being True to Gnost. Cease choosing
Self denial and Self betrayal. And the world will quit mirroring
that betrayal. Honor thyself. Respect thyself. Love thyself.”

“Mom, why is the pattern of self denial and self betrayal so
widespread?”

“It’s what we’ve all been taught. Monkey see, monkey do. The
pattern of denial and betrayal was formally decreed to be
the `Christian’ moral standard at the Council of Nicea in 325 AD.”

“The Council of Nicea?”

“Yes, the Council of Nicea. Nicea is a town in Turkey. Roman
Emperor Constantine I
convened a council there in 325 AD. The invitation list was very
exclusive. Only Agnostics were invited to attend and contribute.”

“Agnostics?”

“Yes. Agnostics. Agnost means `to know not’. The New Testament is
basically set against an agnostic background of worshipping
Ignorance. Make `not knowing’ a moral goal and make knowing taboo.
That’s what was done.

It was at this council that certain self proclaimed religious
authorities of the time decided the contents of the `New
Testament’. Since only Agnostics attended, only agnostic
interpretations and perspectives were declared as valid and True,
while any and all Gnostic perspectives and interpretations were
declared heresy. To speak or write of them meant a death sentence.

Reference to this is in your movie King Arthur.”

“Where?”

“Arthur’s mentor, Pelagius. It is mentioned in the movie that he
was executed for his beliefs. Because according to his beliefs,
others didn’t look so holy. Pelagius was a Gnostic. His death
sentence was due to the overriding perspective of The Church at the
time. It was Agnostic. The Church didn’t like the Gnostic
perspective.”

“Why?”

“Because in accordance with the Gnostic perspective, religion is a
personal experience of individual consciousness. A deeply and
profoundly personal experience of communing with the Knowing in our
Hearts.

For all the other little petty disagreements that were decided and
presumably set in stone at that council, the negation of the Gnostic
perspective wasn’t even argued by those in attendance. Of course
Gnostics needed to be wiped out. Individual spiritual experiences
would nullify the hierarchy and authority of The Church.

Here’s the real kicker, though…

It was also decreed that it be accepted on Blind Faith that those
who selected the books included and labeled as the New Testament,
were Divinely inspired.”

“Inspired by what?”

“By `not knowing’ obviously. (ROFL) But anyone who questioned the sense in
accepting `not knowing’ as `knowledge’ throughout the ages, was
summarily executed.

There you have it. That’s how we all got programmed in Denial and
Betrayal. Because it meant a death sentence not to be for many
ages.”

“But Mom, it doesn’t make any sense.”

“What doesn’t make any sense?”

“To claim to be an authority on ‘not knowing’. How could you know?”

“Does sound kind of dumb doesn’t it? It gets even worse in terms of
sense, really.”

“How?”

“We’re suppose accept this authority as having unknown powers for
determining the unknowable. We’re not suppose to question the sense
or the authority. And simply questioning is proof of wanting to
know, wanting to understand. We’re not suppose to want `to
know`. It’s `wrong’ to want to know. Obedience is `good’.
Understanding is `bad’.

I’ll show you how ingrained the pattern of `not suppose to want to
understand’ is.”

“How?”

“Have you ever seen one of your friends getting into trouble for
asking their parents or some other authority figure `why’?”

“Yeah!”

“Well…there it is. A simple expression of seeking to understand
perceived as a threat to ‘authority’.”

“You never acted that way, Mom.”

“No, I didn’t. I knew better. I didn’t want compliance. What good
would that do? You’d end up being a co-dependent that needs others
to think and make decisions for them. I don’t want to have to carry
you all my life. 9 months was enough. Nor do I want to fight with
some other female as to who’s going to make your decisions for you.
No thanks. I suppose I could have raised you immersed in The
Church’s teachings and dogma in order to control your choices. Then
I could have used guilt to whip you with, for the rest of your life.”

“Guilt over what?”

“Oh I don’t know. I could have made up something, like trying to
make you feel guilty for kicking me all those times when I was
pregnant with you. It doesn’t matter what the guilt is over once
we’ve already been programmed to respond to guilt. But I didn’t do
that either.

I knew your path, your Life’s Joy depends on listening to your own
heart and basing your choices on what your own Heart reveals to
you. It’s our Hearts that tell us our Passion. It’s our Hearts
that tell us our Joys. It’s our Heart that Loves.

I desired your Understanding. I wanted you to know how to
understand things yourself, for yourself. The more you questioned,
the more you expressed your desire to know. I supported and
nurtured that to the best of my ability. I taught you to question,
seeking Understanding. I didn’t want you to believe in the
unknowable, just the unknown.”

“I didn’t realize the worship of Ignorance was so widespread.”

“Believe me, we don’t know what we’re doing when it comes to what we
choose to believe.

The taboo against Knowing is really strong. So most of us don’t
question. Being caught questioning and not just simply believing,
is like being labeled a religious criminal of some kind. Fear of
the consequences is an overriding factor of many. Why, I’ve even
had a ‘Shaman’ quite earnestly warn me of the dire consequences of
Knowing in these days and times.”

“Why is the fear so strong?”

“Most likely has something to do with all the persecutions and
exterminations. The Cathars, The Knights Templar, The Freemasons,
The Rosicrucian’s, The Ascended Master Teaching Foundation, The
Illuminati, were and are essentially Gnostic groups.”

“Secret societies?”

“You bet. But not for subversive reasons. Secret as in, we will be
executed if anyone finds out we even know about these alternate
perspectives. The word ‘occult’ means that which is hidden.
When ‘not knowing’ became the way of the World, ‘knowing’ had to go
underground, in order to avoid being noticed.”

“All those names you mentioned, they`re familiar but I don’t know
why.”

“Most likely because you’ve seen the names before. Lots of time.
Every time we moved my library. The Esoteric teachings of all
those society’s are what’s in all those books.”

“I don’t have to read all of them do I”?

“Heaven’s no. Not unless you particularly want to. Maybe you’d
like to check my resources?’

“No way.”

“Then simply leave it at knowing there is ample reference material
at hand, should you ever be interested or curious. I think the
material is outdated myself. We are Living Beings and expand in our
Understanding all the time. You told me the information I sought.”

“It sure will be more fun on the playground with more kids to play
with, huh, Mom?”

“Yes, Dear. It will be nice to have company.”