{{curiousc}}  I noticed a topic of discussion on your blog about ‘beliefs’.   There are 3 ‘chapters’ between “I Feel” and “I Believe” but, because of the topic being discussed, I’m going ahead and posting this one. 

I Believe
Even faith in nothing is a belief.

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So far I’ve talked about abilities my story started out with. I was born into these abilities. I have the ability to imagine what would enhance the quality of my life, followed by the ability to procure and acquire the tools or means necessary to enhance that life, brought together with the ability to initiate action, the implementation of effort to enhance my life. Along with my sense of Self and my capacity to feel, these parts made up my own immediate Universe. Everything revolved around me.

I was a conglomeration of beliefs woven into a personality. Beliefs about myself, beliefs about the World, beliefs about my relationship with the World. I also found there was a part of me that can best be described as an urge. An urge to expand my field of influence.

An urge to extend myself. To expand awareness of myself past just me. For my Light to shine in somebody else’s world besides my own. To be noticed. To confirm my existence. To socialize.

For many decades my story continued along the same lines as all others. I expressed a sense of my Self. That was full of a lot of hot air, as it turned out. I projected a confidence and an enthusiasm for myself that I genuinely didn’t feel. My Light shows were for the purpose of attracting attention, then enthralling. Lots of time I was only after attention. Negative/positive, it was all attention. Having gotten it, I would move on to attracting more. There always had to be more.

Except when it came to being generous with my self bravado, I didn’t have enough of whatever it took for genuine warmth or generosity. I was too needy for that. Anyone who had what I was after, I’d warm up to. For at least long enough for me to get what ever it was I sought. Sometimes it was only a temporary relief from feeling lonely or insecure. Like a circle of wagons feels more secure then just one.

Lots of us observe this ritual. We seek the company of others because we are dissatisfied with our own. I asked a friend one time if she didn’t enjoy her own company, by what semblance of rational honesty did she imagine anyone else would? She got my point. We can be lonely in a crowd, especially in a crowd of lonely people.

I was sabotaged by my beliefs, by what I had had faith in, which sure wasn’t my self. Symbolically, I was too needy to be a sun. A Sun shines on everything. My Love was too conditional for that. BUT… I could collect satellites. Other worlds that revolved around me.

I would make a great display of enthusiasm and confidence. But my show was just that, a Show. No real warmth but enough light to mesmerize a following.

You see, I needed a following. I couldn’t be recognized as a leader without one. I needed other people who would be dependent upon me to keep them on track and in line. Satellites who needed to be a part of something bigger, to give them an expanded sense of self importance. These satellites fit perfectly with me, for I needed satellites in order to give me my expanded sense of mine.

Negative magnetic fields attract negative poles.

Society’s rocks fit the holes in my head.

Some stories never go beyond this. If the rocks don’t fit, you’re usually pelted with them instead. Fear of being stoned keeps many stories within certain limits. A ‘ring past not’ of experiences and choices that elicit responses of generosity and charity. More commonly known in every culture as taboos, fetishes, superstitions or sins.

A Ring Past Not. A limit we just don’t extend ourselves past.

Where Love is Not extended.

Where Understanding is Not extended.

Where Acceptance is Not extended.

Where Tolerance is Not extended.

Where Forgiveness is Not extended.

Where Mercy is Not extended.

Where Compassion is Not extended.

A ring of conditions ‘a Group’ believes in common. A ring of conditions that keep every individual in the group, in need of the group. In order to make a BIG teepee, I have to assemble lots of sticks, all leaning on each other for their common support.

Many stories never get past this experience of needing group identification. Ostracism, rejection and sometimes extermination, are often consequences of going beyond the limits of cultural taboo. Especially when it comes to thinking and beliefs.

In some stories it has been written that to turn our backs on social acceptance and walk to a different drummer requires Courage. In my story what did it, was Disgust.

I was disgusted with the type of person I had made of myself. I was disgusted by what other people gave meaning to. Most of all, I was disgusted with myself for being so emotionally desperate for acceptance, that I went along with the game. The game of people coming together in hopes of finding someone that has what we think we’re missing. Then we try to take it from them. Like we were all competing over pieces of some big pie. No matter how good I got at it, I never, not once ever, experienced anything close to fulfillment.

I had been looking for Love in all the wrong places and, looking for Love in all the wrong faces. When what I really needed, was to look in a mirror. I was a negative pole in a negative field, looking to get something positive out of it.

That’s when I decided I didn’t care if I was an accepted member of the negative field anymore, even if it was the most popular group. I decided I’d rather live out in left field by myself and be my own best friend, then be lonely surrounded by negative company. That was my decision.

I really didn’t see it as ‘courageous’ at all. I saw it as being fed up with living a senseless life as a stick in a teepee. Life wasn’t exactly fine as a stick but I had learned to crow about being a strong stick. This fed my sense of self importance so long as I didn’t realize I was just a stick. Big stick, little stick, straight stick, crooked stick, a stick is still a stick.

Once something is known, it cannot be unknown. As realization of my stick status set in, my egotistical bubble popped. After that, I didn’t have any desire to stick around.

As a stick in a teepee, I had no stable foundation for my life. No way to develop any stories beyond the teepee. If you think about it, you’ll realize like I did, that teepees are all single stories. Made up of a single story, that holds all the sticks together. A common belief. The belief that was common in my culture, in my story, was a belief that Love is conditional. When I decided not to believe in this conditional love anymore, I went from being a stick, to being a pillar.

Ever since then my foundation has been secure and solid, simply because I‘m not looking outside my self for what I have refused to give myself. I am at Liberty to think of myself any way I’d like. I chose to give myself the experience of knowing what unconditional love feels like. I chose to learn how to love myself that much. I chose being Self Nurturing, so when it came to extending myself and expressing myself, I’d actually have something to share, to extend to others, without any strings attached. I could give without needing to take anything in return.

I chose to be unafraid to be honest. I decided I wouldn’t manipulate my answers for the purpose of being accepted and/or liked anymore. I’d let chips fall where they may. People who liked me would genuinely like me and those that didn’t…., well…didn’t. I could feel secure and be sure of my relationships because since I was real, they were real, too.

I no longer felt like I needed to be liked, because I had learned to like myself. I became a positive pole that radiated a positive field. It took some time, like the time it would take to change a processing plant from processing jelly to processing peanut butter. But the laws of quantum physics didn’t change. Gradually I met others who shared the same attitude and the same goal. A social group formed.

A group of us who have common beliefs and common goals. Pillars believe in Unconditional Love. It’s what makes a pillar, a pillar. Our common goal is cooperating together in order to create stable foundations and environments for self development. We’d like all our stories to be skyscrapers.

There is no competition among pillars. There is no psychological need for it. We know we’re all winners simply because we share the same Gift of Life. We’re all equal, too, because we don’t rely on any made up conditions for elevating some, at an expense of others, like all conditional groups do.

We cooperate or don’t have anything to do with it at all. Sticks may be smart but pillars are wise. And when it comes to genuinely imagining, acquiring and acting upon what actually enhances Life, success depends not on smarts, but on Wisdom, which is Heart plus smarts.

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Emotion
I feel.
I can ride the waves or be controlled by them.

Feelings are inherent in our nature. No two ways about it. We ALL feel. E-motion, energy in motion. While I acknowledge my expertise when it came to suppressing and repressing my feelings, the one thing I never knew to do, was govern them. By the looks of things, most of us have never heard of being self governing in regards to our emotions, either. Our stories seem to be filled with melodramatic drama queens cast in the tile role of main characters for the most part.

One of the most freeing revelations I had, was in realizing I was in charge of how I felt. My thought patterns created peptides and, those peptides came in many flavors. When my thinking patterns told my hypothalamus to create ’fear’ peptides, then fear peptides were what flooded the cells of my body. I would say: I’m feeling fearful or I‘m feeling insecure.

According to my old habit pattern, I would blame those around me or the World, for why I felt the way I did. I didn’t know nor understand about peptides then. I didn’t realize my insecurities were my own issues. Instead, I tried to make others feel guilty for me having them. ‘You make me mad.’ ‘You hurt my feelings.’ ‘You insulted me.’ ‘Your remarks are offensive.‘ What I was too ignorant to claim responsibility for, I blamed on others.

Looking back, I would level a charge of ‘Guilty’ over anyone’s head, that didn’t respond to me, in the way I needed them to respond. What were they Guilty of? Failing to respond the way I needed them to respond. My needs, my emotional needs, were what mattered.

Did I get these needs met? If yes, then everything was fine, regardless of what it took from another. If no, then everything wasn’t fine and the person who failed to meet my needs was vilified.

Thanks to my learned attitude of conditional Love, I was emotionally needy all the time. I never really was sure of all the conditions, either. I tried to learn the ‘rules’ but they changed depending on who I talked to. The one thing that never changed was not being nurturing in what ever we believed about ourselves.

I looked deeper. Not being nurturing in my own beliefs, I looked to other people to save me from myself. To make up for what I dictated I lacked.

I was proficient in the use of coercion, extortion, manipulation and force, in order to satisfy my emotional needs. As you can guess, my relationships were always battlegrounds. I’d battle to see to it that my needs were met, while others would battle for their needs being met.

My relationships were relationships of competition. I was an emotional leech and my life consisted of socializing with other leeches. We would compete over the title of who sucked the most.

Then I realized my feelings were much like the light that shines from the Moon. The Moon had no inherent radiance of its own. It merely reflected the light of the Sun. So too, were my feelings a reflection of what I believed. If my thoughts were dark, then so were my feelings.

Wonder of all wonders, I realized it would work the same way in reverse. If my thoughts were positive, then so would be my feelings. All it took to change one into the other, was a change in perspective.

I found that perspective. I don’t really know how I did it. It just came to me one day. Always embraces all ways. On the level of ‘quantum’, there was no such thing as rejection. It’s power, was it’s inclusiveness. On that level, the Universe was all inclusive, all embracing. There was no such thing as anyone who’d ever lived that had been a ‘not chosen’. The notion was scientifically and philosophically impossible. If it exists or had ever existed, it was found Acceptable to the Universe and, called Existence.

Christ! It hit me. Love and Life extended itself for the sheer Joy of the experience. Positive experience, negative experience, it’s all experience. Every moment is a Present. A Gift.

A full life had nothing to do with length and everything to do with experiences embraced in it. I realized if I didn’t spend so much time in my imagination, living in the past, nursing old wounds, then maybe I wouldn’t be so clueless as to my future. I discovered knowing where I am had a great deal to do with understanding where I might be heading.

I had never known Unconditional Love before. All I had experienced was the lack of it. This is what made me feel needy all the time. With love upon condition, I was never sure if I had fulfilled all conditions. In speaking with others, they had never imagined Unconditional Love, either. We were all perplexed by the same issues. Issues I add, that were immediately resolved and healed, through the activity of our imaginations. We imagined Unconditional Love and found ourselves experiencing what it felt like. From then on, it wasn’t a matter of faith or belief anymore. It was a matter of knowing.

It’s only the lack of it, that we had all felt, that had motivated us to barter with ourselves. Genuine Love was exactly what none of us had ever felt. And have never stopped feeling, since we chose it as the foundation for the kind of relationship we have with ourselves. I can’t give what I don’t have. And I never will have it, if I don’t imagine giving it to myself, first.

I discovered the security of having, was much more pleasant then the insecurity of getting.

The hardest time for me, was when I was first starting to change how I thought and, subsequently felt, about myself. In realizing my emotions were my emotions, I also recognized other people’s feelings, were other people’s feelings. I was not responsible for ’other people’s feelings‘, just as they were not responsible for mine. I knew then, I didn’t have a prayer of a chance of governing anyone else’s hypothalamus. Learning how to govern my own was enough of a challenge for me.

It was with great Joy that I realized my immune system had just become empowered to nullify the ‘negative’ effects of name calling and guilt trips.

I couldn’t be blamed or made to feel guilty. Actually, I could be blamed. Just not made to feel guilty. That was another insight. I didn’t have to give the power of Truth, to what other people said or claimed to believe.

Imagine some sort of astronaut landing in the 11th century. I doubt the astronaut would believe the world was flat, even if the whole world was telling them otherwise.

I Knew I didn’t have any power over another’s feelings. None. From my new perspective, to claim that I did, would be both arrogant and presumptuous. And my actions intended on keeping another person limited in their own self realization, by falsely claiming power over them.

It was then I began to discover how many ideas I had believed in, that required other people believing likewise, in order for me to feel sure of, myself. I began to recognize my own self doubt and where it was coming from. It was coming from my Self. It was coming from believing in ideas so flimsy, that I was dependent upon others for support.

Those like me would gather together like sticks in a teepee, leaning on each other, as our only means of support. We’d all be upright citizens together. United we’d stand and divided, we’d fall. As you can imagine, every single one of us was very controlling. One wrong move by any one of us, could upset the whole bunch.

Now many of us may argue about the subject of Truth. Arguing over which Truth is true. I don’t argue. I simply state that the Truth is True. If whatever we choose to believe is True, we are sure is True, then it provides a foundation of knowing so secure, that we don’t need anyone else’s agreement for support. For the substance of Truth, is True. It stands on Its own.

I learned the lesson about the silk purse and the sow’s ear. Both appeared soft but only one had genuine substance of silk. That’s pretty much the same as it was with me and the previous identity I expressed to the world.

The reason I was an empty vessel, was because my life had so little genuine me in it.

From the Understanding I was quickly assimilating, I realized I’d feel like a complete hypocrite if I continued cursing the world for mirroring my own rejection and self betrayal.

I was the one that rejected me first.

And I betrayed my own self interest by doubting in my self.

I made these kinds of decisions when I believed in conditional love. I don’t abide love upon condition in my life anymore.

 I didn’t like the self image of bartering for love and affection.

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Grinning.

Over the past week, many of us have felt a slowing down of things. A fatigue. Deflated. Tired. Waking up feeling tired.

While a part of the noise in our lives, has been situations or areas in our life that need ‘tweeking’. There’s a sense of lack of balance, lack of harmony or a lack of resolution…’the right answer’…’the right way’. Something is missing.

And what this missing piece is, whatever it is, is what creates a feeling of being at Peace with, whatever situation and circumstance needs the resolution.

I know that might sound vague. But what I’m doing is calling the Play, not filling in any of the props. Like “Romeo & Juliet” is the same Play, whether performed in Japan or in Spain. It’s the same Play even when set in different times and called “West Side Story”, too. It’s the performers, the props and the costumes that are different. THE Play will be colored with props of our own lives but, it will be the same Play, we’ll all be performing. Whether we know it or not.

THIS Play is about finding those resolutions.

The Play began late last night to early this morning, depending upon where we live. It will last until November 1, 2007. Our resolutions will be clear to us by then.

Miscommunications and misunderstandings have a tendency to run rampant during Plays like these, if we’re not aware and don’t understand the process going on, on our inner levels.

It’s a time we are encouraged and inspired to look within, to ‘take a sounding’ of what’s lurking within us. This particular Play has to do with what’s lurking DEEP within us. Kind of reminds me of “The Princess and the Pea.” This Play has Us looking for the Pea.

Our encouragement comes in the forms of obstacles and barriers popping up out of nowhere that bars further progress or further action along certain lines, in certain areas of our lives. Where ever these resolutions are needed.

Because ‘outer’ activity is blocked, we often have a tendency to feel mad, or angry, or frustrated, or aggravated…whatever emotion we usually experience when we aren’t allowed progress towards our imagined goals. These kinds of responses end up creating even further imbalances, that if not resolved, will wait until the next time this Play comes along and, will seek resolution then. But forward progress will remain blocked and the goal, whatever it is, will remain out of our reach.

Here is Alpha Life Trends assistance in helping us identify the areas of our lives where we will find these deep issues lurking. In their shadows we will find the resolution that we seek.

The address of Karyl Jackson’s website is: www.alphalifetrends.com

And in case you might wonder, no, I cannot attest to her skills when in comes to any of her services. I do and have, appreciated her insights over the past 8 years.

According to your Sun Sign

Find your Sun Sign and read the impact of the Libra/Scorpio aspect to your Sun Sign

ARIES – Mercury retrograde is impacting your inner values and your deep determination to move forward investing in yourself and your beliefs. You are reviewing the deep connections you share with others and you will realize you are ready to make your move, stand up for your beliefs and go in your own direction. The important issues for you surround the parts of yourself that you can share with others. If there are relationships in which you can’t share a deeper belief with, then you will begin to withdraw from connection with those individuals and those directions associated with unimportant activities. As an Aries you have learned to value yourself and to not let anyone push you into being someone other that what you are. During this Mercury retrograde you will be communicating to important relationships and making important decisions about the people you want to continue walking with.

TAURUS – Mercury retrograde impacts your relationships and those people you work with. You will begin to connect with others that you have a common set of values with and those values will become important as you review your relationships in general, but also with a focus of your work environment. You will go review your work environment and make decisions to connect with the people that you have something solid to share. You are ready to take a stand to connect with others as you stand up for your beliefs. You are gaining in the exhibition of your true motives and ethics. You philosophy has always been a very strong one, and you will also utilize this philosophy in your actions in dealing with other people. A strong philosophy has been the foundation of your life which has been lived out in your dealings with other people, whether in a personal or work environment. You will become more outspoken about this philosophy and about others connection to this same philosophy.

GEMINI – Mercury retrograde is impacting your creative ideas and how they are integrated into your work environment. There may be a lot of opportunities to adjust your work environment because of the creative pursuits that you begin to apply your talents. You have many talents that are just naturally inherent within yourself. You will be taking these talents a step further as you begin to integrate the creative ideas into your work environment. You may also take up a new health regime in which you find you enjoy and that it provides the spark you have been looking for to regain connection with your inner and outer health. You are very good at working with other people and will have more demands to incorporate that quality into your work environment as well. Becoming more social will be part of this Mercury retrograde. Many spontaneous opportunities to join groups will come into manifestation.

CANCER – Mercury retrograde will see changes in your home environment as it relates to your relationships, decoration and children. You will begin to see that you have a strong likeness for a particular person, a particular color, theme or desire. You will integrate these decisions into your home environment and bring new people into your life, into your home and expand your creative projects. You also have a deep connection with your children that will change the way you have decorated or chosen your house. You will be revising either your home or how it is laid out. You may also decide to remodel or to move closer to your child’s school. The purpose of your decisions will be according to your relationships, whether a spouse, family member, children or decisions to redecorate according to your true creative ideas.

LEO – Mercury retrograde impacts your deeper connection with yourself and your true inner feelings about yourself and your home environment. You will be reviewing your home and rethinking many of your decisions of the past. You may also have a huge awakening regarding your true feelings as you look at your life from a much deeper perspective than ever before. Mercury retrogrades back to Libra as you want to regain a balance and stabilize your mental thoughts. There is a strong impetus to gain control of your home environment and not allow your life to come under such major swings because of other people. This will become a strong desire that will ultimately have you rethink some major decisions that you have made in the past. You will come into some great inner realizations and begin to see things differently in order to regain your balance and harmony.

VIRGO – Mercury retrograde impacts your decisions and how your decisions impact your relationships and the finances that have a joint name on them. Virgo is a strong auditing sign and you want to make sure that all is fair and right, so you at times go out of your way to over compensate for your search for fairness. You think about situations in a very deep and penetrating way. You bring your conclusions into a balance and fairness approach with others, in your home, work and business relationships. All partnerships are treated according to the deeper values that each person shows they have as a natural foundation. Your thought process is going to change as well as your financial situation and the connection you have with joint funds and the money that you share with others.

LIBRA – Mercury retrograde impacts your finances and the finances that have a direct correlation on the way you see yourself and how others see you. You want to make sure that you are a fair individual, but you also look at situations dealing with finances in a fairly black and white way. You are reviewing your finances and realizing the impact that the financial status has had on your own image of your self. You want to gain control of your financial situation and turn it around to enable you to have a stronger sense of self and independence. You are ready to regain harmony and balance within yourself and how the control of others with your finances have impacted you and kept you from being allowed to be yourself. Your focus is to regain your self, your independence and be ready to build your financial future.

SCORPIO – Mercury retrograde impacts your image of yourself and how your destiny is changing. You will also look at your inner world to see how much of your balance and harmony was given up due to the controls in the outside world. You will look at yourself differently and become stronger proponent toward your own inner self, intuition and your belief in your own world. You will rethink the ability of the outside world to control you and to take away your balance and harmony. As you work hard to regain this inner balance you will begin to realize how much of it was long along the way. You are ready to regain your true inner self and you will make a decision to put yourself first before allowing the outer situations to control your world and your self-image. This resolve becomes a huge factor as you continue to walk through the remainder of the year.

SAGITTARIUS – Mercury retrograde is impacting your connection with humanity and a larger scope of people. You are expanding into many different groups that you would normally not have a connection with, but because your life is changing, you are moving into very different social circles. Your destiny has a hand in this process as you are going from group to group and connecting with people that are so different than you. However, the connection is an important one and has a reason and purpose behind the energy shift that has come into your life. You are tapping into part of your destiny a sit relates to your new life emerging. Your goals have to now have some different connections in your life that actually will become a blessing in disguise even though right now you may not see it. You have a great amount of depth within and you are not anxious to share that with just every person you meet. But yet at the same time, your circumstances will make you toss caution to the wind and just communicate with people as you would a best friend. This has a definite purpose as your life is on the launch pad ready to blast off into new and different directions.

CAPRICORN – Mercury retrograde impacts your endeavors regarding the relationship with humanity and what your efforts mean to society. You have a strong inner depth and a strong sense of ethics as you have lived out your philosophy. Your true inner world is about ready to explode beyond your containment. All of your beliefs and efforts will explode out into the open. You have built the very quality that you value and are willing to stand up and speak up as Truth becomes the important issue during this Mercury retrograde. You are ultimately preparing for your opportunities to be revealed in your career setting as Mercury retrogrades back into Libra’s connection with people and potentially have partnerships within your business world. These new connections may be the very key to unlock the career pathways that you have been desiring for quite some time. You will bring back a sense of balance into your career and business pursuits as you implement your true humanitarian values and how they fit into your career. You may make many changes in your career as new relationships come into play that allow you to connect with others that share your same inner values.

AQUARIUS – Mercury retrograde is impacting how your philosophy is being utilized in your career and business pursuits. You are not ready to give up your controls to others that don’t share the same philosophy. You want to connect with a larger social group that you can work in business together and share the same philosophy. Bringing these two areas together for the purpose of your strong desire to connect with integrity, ethics and have a strong sense of pride in your career. Your career then begins to fulfill your inner self and the pursuits that propagate your philosophy of “making a difference”. Because of the people you meet that share your same goals and philosophy, you may make a career shift and make a determination that you can have a stronger and better impact upon humanity in this way. You will make many important shifts as you see a path opening up that has the qualities that you are looking for in your life.

PISCES – Mercury retrograde gives you a reason to looker deeper at your life and at your philosophy. You have finally made friends with your intuition and you are seeing it as a great value and something that you can invest in further. Your philosophy is your foundation, yet at times, you have been so stretched with feeling so overwhelmed with situations that you didn’t have the time or the strength to continue walking toward your goals. Now that you have your inner connection, you will be making importance decisions about how to invest more of your time and money toward this inner aspect of yourself. The balance that you will be regaining will make you stronger and feel your deeper aspect of ethics, motives and desires. You will ultimately make decisions to change and adjust your goals because of the recognition that you are truly a wonderful person. Your inner depth begins to speak for itself.

Unity

“The World unwraps itself, again and again, as we are ready to see it anew.” *
*From the book Wicked: The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West, by Gregory Maguire

{{Secret Simon}}, the foundation of ALL of our society’s and religions, Worldwide, have been based on separation. And in the philosophies of the East, there are just as many ideas of separation, as in any Western one.

What is NOW considered ‘obsolete’, is any spiritual understanding based on separation. What is NOW considered ‘new’, is genuine Spiritual Understanding. I say genuine, simply because it is based on Unity, from a perspective of Unity.

Which is what none of our beliefs have had before.

Spirit, as representative of the Absolute, pervades All, encompasses All, embraces All, IS All. By Nature of the very definition of “Absolute”. NO exclusions.

Spirit Unifies.

It’s our ‘egos’ that choose to divide.

Look at ‘ego’ for a moment. Ego. I go. Ever wondered about the “I”? Maybe I go one way, in an attitude based on separation and, because I‘m an “I“, I get to experience that which I‘ve Imagined. I go another way, an Integrated way and “I” get to experience something else. Either way, I go. e-go.

It’s a matter of direction and purpose. Analysis or synthesis? Away or towards. Breathe in, Breathe out. Expand, contract.

Choices.

Without “I“, there is no ‘go’. Without “e“, there’s no going anyplace, either.

“E-go” goes and “e-motion” is the result! ‘e‘ is the esoteric symbol for Consciousness.

So the first thing I share in regards to many of our eastern beliefs, is that ridding ourselves of ‘ego’ and directing ‘ego’ are two different things, with two vastly different results. One creates a personal Identity of Zero. The other creates a personal Identity of One.

Choices. Do we choose to relate the Identity of the Absolute to Zero or to One? An Almighty Something or an Almighty Nothing?

Hmmm….I ask my Heart. What feels better? Thinking of myself as worth nothing or worth something?

One time my response to one of us who was endeavoring to merge themselves with dust was, “If you choose to identify yourself with dirt, don’t whine about being a victim when someone shows up and treats you like a clod.”

The desire to negate the value of our Identity always ends up in insanity or suicide. The Universe is Servant to our choices.

Separation…in the East, while ‘nirvana’ may be reached in awareness, this awareness is non-functional in terms of translation. Ideas are not brought down to earth in ways that benefit and uplift physical circumstances. It is seen as a far off goal for most. That, in itself, is Separation.

There’s no Creation going on. No translating of ideas into form. ‘Nirvana’ is not being “brought down to earth” and translated into forms that would assist others in our daily lives.

So what if ‘nirvana’ can be attained by sitting on our ass and ‘om-ing’ a few bars, daily, hourly, whatever…? Big deal. I am not impressed.  What Hope and Inspiration is THAT, for the man who is eeking out his daily bowl of rice and doesn’t have time to sit on his ass all day? Who lives in one of our cities where it is illegal to beg? What Hope and Inspiration is THAT for the man driving to work everyday for a paycheck that’s already spent before he gets it? What Hope and Inspiration is THAT for the single Mother who’s not only working to support her family but be a nurturing presence for her kids, too?

Even the beautiful Being, the Dali Llama, admits he’s not an ‘enlightened one’.  And he’s an Honest individual.  He knows he’s not embodying that principal, even though there are many, that look to him as a pinnacle of achievement.  Once consciousness expanded, that ‘pinnacle’ wasn’t a ‘pinnacle’ any more.

In the East it is not our Spiritual nature that is denied but, our form. The East negates the value of ‘Mother’. You can’t both have a ‘spiritual life’ and have much of a physical one, too.

Abundance within is being given no expression. Whatever ‘peace’ has been found, the beauty of it hasn’t been shared in ways that have increased the standard of living among the believers.

Ever seen a monk pregnant?

Creativity just isn’t their bag, obviously. It’s hard to be Creative when we cut ourselves off from our lower half’s. A half is still a half, whether top or bottom.

Ministering was the tone and the essence of our Past 2000 years. Conscious creation is the tone and the essence of the next 2000 years.

Color Spirit personable. Something abstractions just don’t have. If we desire…aspire…to connect and merge, then imagine an image that is ATTRACTIVE. Personally, Attractive. The stronger the DESIRE, the more POWERFUL the ATTRACTION.

An abstraction is not attractive. It has no power of attraction, for there is no heart feeling involved, no Love, no DESIRE. I can love an abstraction with my mind, I can admire it but, I can’t lay down at night and cuddle with it. Thinking about an abstraction doesn’t create any kind of experience of warm fuzzies within me. There’s no comfort in it.

Don’t negate Desire, DIRECT it.

{{Secret Simon}} Imagine your own Spiritual Presence as ‘female’, since you are decidedly polarized as ‘male’, physically. Share with your wife to imagine her Spiritual presence as a ‘male’, since she is polarized as ‘female’, physically. Make these figures young, VIRILE and, full of Vitality, every single aspect of Glorious you can imagine. Imagine an image that creates a FIRE of PASSION in your Heart, a yearning for, an EXCITEMENT for.

Then visit this idea daily, hourly, whatever… but, do it with a rhythm. The more attention and energy it gets, the closer to manifestation it will become.

From conception to birth, the idea of a child takes a while. During this time of ‘pregnancy’, the idea is being fed energy and with that energy, starts taking on the form of the pattern or, the idea. This is the process of Creation, whether it is a child of our body, our minds or our souls.