You have expressed yourself beautifully.

Well written and beautifully expressed.

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Enjoy your days away from the computer!

My results showed my charkas open, except for the crown being overactive and my throat underactive, which makes me realize what I believe I know about myself and must work on has truth:) that I am wary of expressing what I think to others that I do not know very well. I realize it is not really about words, that I say I cannot find sometimes, it is because I am not open enough with what I wish to express which causes the lack of words I think, and this I know, is my insecurity, or my not letting go of what I attach to this feeling.

My crown being overactive is an over-analazation I believe of things, which I do know I do at times when I should simply listen to what my heart tells me, for I do so strongly believe as well that the heart is what gives you balance and through meditation perhaps the time is taken to really listen to what it says. I do not think it would ever steer you wrong and even if what you feel in your heart does not match what others feel, it should not really matter, because it is simply you and your heart speaking and if it causes noone any harm intentionally, especially yourself, then it is pure I think.

I feel we are all born with a pure and open heart, but circumstances around us cause us to close it up a bit sometimes, along with how pure it feels, A protection maybe, with so many different degrees and it is the opening up of this again, getting it back to how it was when we were first born and trusting it that is maybe difficult sometimes.

With me, my heart is more open than it is closed. I have no idea why, but I believe it is because I was so fortunate not to have had experiences in my early years that caused me a need to protect it and which I still can remember. I know as well though, that it is not as open as it should be, the way it was when I was first born but when I listen to it, when I take the time to really really listen to it, it is the time when I feel most secure and balanced, and I have found that when I take the time to listen with my heart, to what others say, when all other things are silent except what it is in my heart, that I hear what is in the hearts of others speaking as well.

I have just realized, just when writing this:) how much our hearts affect our minds, and I think now that how open our minds are, is really just how open our hearts are.

Why do you think I claim to be a Complete Idiot?

The Purity of Creation is held in a Womb of UNconditional Love.

Un conditional.

That is what is so Immaculate about the Concept itself.

We need not worry or concern ourselves with ‘either/or’. Everything is And.

Take the most horrendus personality you’ve ever imagined and yes, even they are embraced. For behind every single one of our Passions, is a reason, why we are Passionate about it.

Fidelity is Holding the Faith.

We start with Faith in ourselves. Faith in the Power to move mountains in our Hearts.

As one Bull to another, yes, I now the experience. I also know the experience of being so insecure I was passionate about being liked, about being acknowledged and being accepted. What I found out is the reason my Passions were so fueled, is because deep down I didn’t really love myself very much.

I was afraid other people were going to mirror back to me what I thought and felt about myself. because they usually did. Little did I understand the Law of Attraction.

I was uncomfortable around and with Humanity, because I was uncomfortable with my own. In learning to Love my own, I became qualified to call myself a Humanitarian.

To err is human.

To forgive is Divine.

Ooopsie!

The Dunce hat is sure a lot ease-ier to wear then the brilliant one. You can relax a lot more, too.

Well come to the club.

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the will holds onto itself, the mind holds onto itself, and a person is subject to what they hold onto. We can’t create from a state of attachment, we can moreso as we go along, but not yet truly, not for me.

I think perhaps a bull is driven by his passions, his creative force, almost exclusively. But you can’t create without a proper lamp to see with, not purely. Why are the bull’s horns turned into his 3rd eye?

Somehow my 3rd eye is blocking some rays – any insights Sue?

Yes I see myself tramping around stepping on toes like a proud buffoon, unable to see my own reflection, and taking that for proof of purity.

The 10,000 things become the last few things, it hasn’t been a fruitless chase, or wasted effort.

There’s more, but it’s hard to encapsulate – - why try?

I have the “web developer tools” toolbar on my web browser – one of the buttons is “view source”. I want to click it! Is it that easy somehow?

I just want to be able to be a decent person – my density has held me back from that, even if indirectly. It’s been so long!

Somehow the creative power expands on all levels, and it takes intense effort to keep it pure.

All of these ideas are forming into one idea, that’s all it’s been all along – 10,000 ideas into 1. Then that idea goes.

I’m comfortable now in left field, that’s probably pretty clear lol

I’ve been a fool, been a fool, been a fool. there’s a good tune!

I’m near the door Sue, but I’m feeling mighty sheepish. I can only hit the button.

You’re allowing some self expression to come forth. Your Heart is opening.

And I understand about your Values, for my youngest son shares the same. He desires depth of intimacy. I have told him and share with you now, that are you become more intimate with our own feelings, so will your life begin to reflect that same inimacy. Ladies of depth will begin popping up all over the place.

You are taking great strides in loving yourself.

There is one thing, though, that if you can hear me, would make all the difference in your understanding.

The ‘knowing’ you have expressed, is an intellectual ‘knowing’. It is a product of our mental faculties. As in, knowledge.

I could sit here all day and razzle dazzle with intellect. But for me, it means nothing. It’s worthless unless tempered with heart felt understanding. I.Q. has no value to me, either. I’m one of the ’show me you know something useful to do with it’ kinds of person.

Besides, using intellect as a means to razzle and dazzle, as an attachment of our worth and value, is Unequitable and, the basis for a lot of negative judgments towards those of us not so inclined.

One of my relatives is a very simple man. I admire him greatly and have told him so. he will tell a tale of mishap and tell you, “I just stopped and talk to God. God, I know I’m a stupid man, a fool and I’ve messed up again. Will you please help me.”

He’s always helped. His Faith is that pure.

He doesn’t need smarts, because he has heart.

When I say KNOW, I am speaking of a state beyond thinking. It is a KNowing of our Hearts, beyond any explanations. When we have it, we don’t need any exlanations, it simply Is there.

I could understand ‘over active’ if there was any imbalance. But not when ALL of them are 100%.

Just ‘improbable’ according to “old” standards. But absolutely necessary, according to ‘new’ ones.

Tell your husband “Hello!” for me, with respect. It’s a wonderful idea, creating the dinosaur. Whimsy keeps us happy, otherwise it wouldn’t be Wonderland!

We live in strange times, writing has always been the easiest way to communicate with people, throughout history, but these days we tend to write mostly to people who would be otherwise unfamiliar to us. The internet is both a balm for the seeker and part of the experience of separation; but I think this is part of the growing pains, it’s hard to face one’s own willpower in the world, we’ve all been there. Every step of the Way.

Sometimes the most difficult part is acceptance. But the freedom is the key. And ultimately I’m not sure that it’s we ourselves who turn the lock. How do we sit back into restfulness, and work on the lock at the same time? I think the key turns on its own.

Anyway, pretty esoteric, and sometimes difficult to think about, but it’s the thinking that’s the issue.

Peace alights like a dove, and then is the rest. But I say all of this with respect, and for now I’ll take my leave. I understand the battle.

I’m a live-and-let-live guy, to the core of my being. I could be called a hermit, but it only would seem that way to someone, on the surface of things.

I’ve been ashamed to say it, but I’m a virgin at 28 years old. Why ashamed? I suppose because I’m old fashioned, but such a thing is almost considered strange in society today, being old fashioned. What is strange to me, is society.

Men are supposed to be strong, to take what they want, and to be driven by their desires – that’s what the TV/movies would make us think. And so, that’s the pattern.

I’ve never lived according to the patterns of society, and so, society hasn’t understood me. There is an archetype, and we must fit it, “or else”.

Or else what? I won’t be myself. So, you play along, you play the game, you pretend to value the same things that society values, but inside you are opposed to it. So you find opposition, in the form of the passions of society.

We each own our creative passion, but the problem is that we don’t feel comfortable in accepting ourselves in terms of what we REALLY want to create in the world.

I want to create peace for everyone, reconciliation, recognition of the sacredness of family, fidelity, being true to those who we love. If I spend my time trying to pretend that that isn’t my creative passion, I will be misunderstood, and my creative passion will be doused by the rains of dis-illusionment.

So that’s where that comes from.

Sometimes life is a rollercoaster. I almost got hit by a car behind me while driving today – I went off of the freeway exit, and rounded the corner, and boom, there were a stack of stopped cars right in front of me, where I didn’t expect any cars to be.

I had time to stop, but did the guy behind me? I made sure that I’d come to a stop, and calmly looked into the rearview mirror – a truck was coming at me – yep, good chance he could hit me. I looked ahead of me – a bit of room left between me and the car ahead of me. I was still moving a bit. I took my foot off the break, and came to a stop with no room left.

Tires squeeling the truck came to stop behind me. I smiled into the rearview mirror at the guy driving the truck. No harm, no foul.

A little bit of an adrenaline rush going, I continued toward the store, my original destination. No harm, no foul.

I wrote this next part before reading your comments Sue, I didn’t want to lose the clarity of what I’d realized a bit ago:

Sue I haven’t read your last 2 comments yet – I want to share a huge insight that I’ve just had, before I lose the essence of it.

I was practicing playing the guitar; I’ve gotten a very unconventional guitar teaching book, “Fretboard Logic”; It has all kinds of information on basically what a guitarist needs to know simply to play the guitar, rather than on music theory or anything like this.

I realized this when I came across a quote in the book by Elvis Presley.. he said “I don’t know anything about music. In my line of work you don’t have to.”

The book deals with the fretboard itself, rather than airy and esoteric thoughts of music theory.

But when I saw that quote, I realized – you don’t have to know anything about music to play the guitar. Feeling instead of knowing, going with the flow instead of spending every ounce of your effort on trying to find the roadsigns.

Reading the instruction manual first is absolutely imperative, especially if you don’t know the roads. But eventually the bookcase is together, in spite of all of the strangely translated directions on the “construction” manual. Or should I say, the guitar is together.

Then you can just play. And you don’t have to know anything about music to play well! But it takes some willingness to get your strings tuned first to play a harmonious tune.

There’s references to this concept in Taoism too, but in the past it’s been a “can’t see the forest for the trees” thing for me with Taoism – Taoism itself isn’t the forest, but it was may way to get out of the forest. That’s why I cancelled that blog, like you said, it was a series of abstractions.

Truly transformative.

I was curiously unsure about the “overactive” thing too on the test – I think they are mistaking having an imbalanced state – ie a few chakras being way out of balance compared to the level of the others, with meaning that having a fast-spinning chakra is a bad thing. Like all things in life, it’s about balance.