We talk a lot about it.  But I don’t think many of us really know what Love is.  I know I didn’t.

You bet, I was taught a version of it.  Littered with enough gems of truth to make it easy to want to believe in.  A lie, what my husband delights in calling “black magic”.  Black because it’s dark and dark because it hides something.

That’s the only purpose for dark…to hide something.  Something we fear to see.

I looked.

There is a poem by Kahlil Gibran “On Love”, from his book “The Prophet”.   Here is how it reads, free of any polarity/duality ideas.

“On Love

When Love beckoned to me, I followed,
Though Love’s ways were hard and steep.
And when Love’s wings enfolded me, I yielded,
Though the sword hidden among Love’s pinions wounded me.  When Love spoke to me, I believed,
Though Love’s voice shattered my dreams, as the north wind laid waste my garden.
Even as Love crowned me, so was I crucified.  Even as Love supported my growth, so did it provide a pruning.
Even as Love ascended my heights, and caressed my tenderest branches,
So Love descended to my roots and shook them from their clinging.   Like a sheave of corn I was gathered.
I was threshed to make me naked.
I was shifted free of my husks.
I was ground to whiteness.
And kneaded until I became pliant.
And then I was assigned to Love’s fire, in order to become bread for God’s feast.
All these things Love did to me, that I could come to know the secrets of my heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life’s Heart.
If in my fear I would have sought only Love’s peace and Love’s pleasure,
Then it would have been better for me to keep covering my nakedness and pass out of Love’s thrashing floor.
Into the season-less world where I would laugh but not all of my laughter,and weep, but not all of my tears.
Love gives nothing but of itself and takes nothing but from itself.
Love possess not nor will be possessed.  For Love is sufficient for Love.  When I Love I do not say: “God is in my heart”,
but rather “I am in the heart of God”.
I am not so foolish as to imagine I can direct Love’s course, being found willing, Love now directs my course.
Love has no other desire then to fulfill itself.
But since I love and have needs of desires, this is my desire,
To be like a running brook that sings its melody into the darkness.
I know the pain of too much tenderness.
I am wounded by my understanding of Love;
And bleed willingly and joyfully.
I wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of Loving;
I rest in the afternoon and melt in Love’s ecstasy
I spend the evening at home in gratitude
And then fall asleep calling for the beloved in my heart,  with a song of love on my lips.”

Love loves us even when we’re unlovable.

But it is only in facing how unlovable we are,

That we become Loving.

I’ve been sharing for over 2 years to get ready to “surrender all outer attachments”.  In LIGHT of what has happened economically,  I’m posting this again.  I give ‘fair’ warning, anything having to do with a “credit rating” is an outer attachment.  Continuing to hold onto to this outer attachment will only bring more loss and hardship, as credit card holders are drained of life energy.  Be AWARE when making choices.

Reports are also streaming in, that within a few years, over 70% of the children in the US will be using Food stamps and have inadequate health care, with numbers approaching 90% in the adult category needing these services.  It has been stated that the population in the US will be experiencing the worst case of physical deprivation seen in many lifetimes.

We will continue to be offered motivation and opportunities to shift our values…, until we do.  Once we shift, then things will get better and not before.

“I Have”

Things of Value I Carry with Me

The Law of Love & Attraction. Obviously, I had issues with what I was and had been, attracting, as far as experiences went. Same ole’ story, over and over and over. And I didn’t especially like it. Enough is as good as a feast, already.

I could understand the magnetism of what I was attracting on a Quantum level but, honestly, what did Love have to do with it?

Then it hit me, I had chosen to Love the lack of it. Of all things, me, blindsided when it came to Values. That’s when I became the proverbial bull in a china shop. The china shop being the Values I had been serving. That I was now mindless in rattling as my inner life came crashing down, as insubstantial as a house of cards.

One time later in my story my Husband suggested I give away my secret formula for miracles. Just charge a hell of a lot for postage and handling. I disregarded his statement about postage and handling, knowing he was just being a rascal. But his statement that I had a secret formula puzzled me. I didn’t know I knew a formula, secret or otherwise, for miracles.

Then he quoted my own words back to me.

“Values I carry with me where ever I go.”

Oh, I thought, that formula. ‘That’s a formula?’, I asked him, somewhat thrown off by the utter blatancy that had escaped me, unnoticed. Him, being him, just let me chew on it for a while, letting me digest what he had said. It required I take a trip down memory lane, to when I first asked myself to make a list of:

Values I carry with me where ever I go.

I remembered my list. I also remembered how insecure a person I was when I made it.

I listed things like:

Money

Credit card

Debit card

Safety deposit box key. (which held a whole ‘nother list)

The next question I asked myself was, ‘how much time did I spend absorbed with these things?’

Stark realization began to sink in. I spent a LOT of time focused on these things, protecting these things and, trying to accumulate more. Why, my feelings of worth and security, were tied to these and other, things.

Things I could get using various means. I never did resort to outright thievery. I learned about working for what I desired. I also learned how to cajole and manipulate through guilt. Blaming other people for how I felt and, doing my best to try to make them feel guilty for me feeling that ‘not happy’ way. Among the things that I counted on the most, was getting other people to agree with me.

I looked at my list. Things I could get.

Things that not only could be got, but could also be taken. Which led me face to face with one of my greatest fears. Loss. Loss of the things and loss of the ability to get more.

A panorama of my life opened up before me. It almost made me nauseous.

I could get alright. But in that getting, I never did have. I had spent countless moments pursuing objects of my affection, that once acquired, never had led to any firm or secure sense of anything. Worth or loved. What I had created instead, was a solid sense of being able to acquire and to fight to keep.

And it took a lot of effort.

Being Honest with mySelf, I’m like a train to get moving. I gather momentum as I go. That makes it easy to plough through barricades in my way without any extra effort. I asked my momentous Self what was the purpose of all this revving of engines if I never arrived at a destination? Perpetual motion was exhausting. Especially when it took everything I got, to keep going. Aha! Give and take…equals a net of zero.

I finally grasped it.

My previous list had been a list of things I could get. Had got. And showed my potential for getting even more.

Look at me! I’m a go-getter. Barreling down the tracks.

With my one track mind fueled by all my insecurities.

My inner world reeled as I came to a complete stop in my thinking. That‘s when my life started to resemble a train wreck as far as appearances went.

‘Things of Value I carry with me where ever I go.’

Where had I invested my sense of worth?

OUTSIDE of myself, that’s where. In things. In Objects. In achievements. I saw where this train of thought had led. To an endless series of competitions as a racing rat of an engine. How cheesy.

Oh, by all appearances I certainly wouldn’t have been considered even close to poor, yet, it was all a screen. A fake store front. It provided an appearance of a person of worth. I say ‘fake’ simply because inside my own heart, where it counted, I knew I wasn’t secure. Everything I got, could be taken.

Worse, even if I managed to ‘keep’ whatever I ‘got’, no matter how durable the good, it eventually would return to dust. Even plastic was biodegradable in lava. Depreciation, depletion, amortization, erosion, devaluation, attrition, everywhere I looked was subject to outside influences. Especially time.

Staking my worth and sense of security on anything like this was risky. I’d have to be pretty tricky and inventive to be able to control all these possible outside influences. Even if I somehow managed the ludicrous idea of becoming Heap Big Chief in charge, controlling ’time’ was going to be somewhat of a challenge.

There’s got to be something else, my Intuition told me. I just sensed it. So I asked myself the question again.

‘What Values do I carry with me where ever I go?’

And it was in asking again, that I finally Understood. ‘Getting’ and ‘having’ are different experiences.

What were the qualities of my character? What was inside my Heart? And I began taking an inner inventory this time. An inventory of qualities of character I could call upon at any moment’s notice. Any Where. Any When. Values of a Timeless sort of nature. Understanding, Acceptance, Tolerance, Patience, Compassion, Wisdom and, Forgiveness.

‘They were all there‘, I sighed to myself with a sense of relief. Some in greater supply then others, especially Patience and Trust but, all were there. I Had. I realized I also Had all the Freedom in Life, to Have more. Anytime I desired. Completely independent of anything and anyone else.

Ever since then I’ve lived with a Secure sense of Worth.

Secure in knowing Love is very Attractive.

There’s been another shift.  In case we might not remember, about 2 years ago I shared these shifts were coming in a series.   This one I could call #2.   When #1 came through, our Economy ~changed~.  This time different areas are going to be highlighted, specifically the areas of Equality, Balance, Harmony, Justice and Human Resources.

Basically, if we have drained other people’s energy in order to build our personal realities, then our lives are going to be drained in an equal and like manner.   Our desires thwarted while others’ desires served.   It’s called “Fair” and “Equitable”.   The “quantum flow” has shifted.  It is no longer going in the direction of greatest separation.  It is now flowing towards Unity.

Those of Us who chose to go “against the flow” and Value Unity over the Past, know that the experience can be likened to a salmon swimming upstream.  Now the current has changed,  it is everyone of Us experiencing a dual or polarized reality that is now a salmon, swimming upstream.

First thing I can share to make the trip ease-ier, is to say give up all Hope of the flow going back to the way it used to be.  Quit even so much as wishing or trying to go back to the old ways of living and doing things.  Don’t resist the flow; surrender to it.

Notice the title of this post?  I’m going to use the symbols of numbers, symbols commonly known and understood, as I endeavor to share the Understanding of what is transpiring.

Each and every single one of Us is a “1″.  We’re All individuals.  Whether we end up being a “2″ kind of One or an “11″ kind of One is determined by how we relate to others.

Like apples and oranges, “2’s” form relationships with other “2’s”,  “11’s” form relationships with other “11’s”.   Apples relate to apples, oranges relate to oranges.   “Peas stick your own pod.”  Why?

Because the very pattern of relating itself is different.  The game board looks the same for either chess or checkers.  But if one person sits down to play chess and another to play checkers, they’re not going to get along from the very start.   Such is the same for “11’s” and “2’s”.  We’re all sharing the same World.  We simply all don’t relate to that same World in the same way.

In terms of basic math, all “2’s” form relationships diagrammed like this:  1 + 1 = 2.  All “11’s” form relationships diagrammed like this: 1 + 1 = 11.

Energetically, we can see how this goes, when carried further with more “1’s”.

1 + 1 + 1 = 3; 1 + 1 + 1 = 111.
1 + 1 + 1 + 1 = 4; 1 + 1 + 1 + 1 = 1,111.

It takes 11 “2’s” to equal the energy of 2 “11’s”.  It takes 111 “2’s” to equal the energy of 3 “11’s”.  It takes 1,111 “2’s” to equal the energy of 4 “11’s”.

Getting the picture?

Humanity as a Race, is evolving into “11’s”.

And subconsciously all “2’s” already know this.   It’s the reason there is so much fear.  How can a “2″ possibly compete with an “11″ for resources?  There is simply no way.

So it sure is a good thing that “11’s” don’t “compete” isn’t it? An “11″ has NO interest in “competition”; an “11″ is only interested in “cooperation”.   “11’s” are Whole Beings…, Integrated Beings…, inter-dimensional Beings.

And “2’s” are not.

“11’s” are Masters of the physical plane

and “2’s” are slaves of it.

The goal and purpose of the “11’s”

is to free all the slaves.

Unlike the Civil War, we’re not going to war.   Oh, “2’s” are welcome to conflict all “2’s” want.  All conflict will do is drain the “2’s” of energy quicker, which serves the purpose of an “11″, {{{too}}}.  Why would an “11″ want to conflict with that?

“11’s” are here witnessing and bringing in “Christ’s 2000 year reign on earth”.  What this simply means, is that all earth realities are being brought into alignment with Greater, Universal Realities.   Earth Humanity is being recognized and accorded Universal citizenship, basically.   So now we have to ‘clean up’ our acts.  There ARE standards to be met, that’s where the “11’s” come in.  “11’s” are teaching the Universal standard through living it and expressing it.

And there’s a lot of work to do.  A lot of “2’s” that caught the preceding shifts got stuck, so there are fewer “11’s” then had been hoped for.  Expansions in awareness were used to glorify and exalt individuals, without the Personalities of those individuals being transformed and purified.  Because the gift of awareness was used for selfish purposes, these individuals were and are, blocked from any further expansions.  They got *stuck* in their own illusions and will remain there, until their Personalities learn how to kneel before the Wisdom of their Universal Self.

Like the Initiation of the Freemasons, a man is brought in blindfolded and led in by a noose around his neck.  The meaning of the Initiation is the admittance of being blind and ignorant, thus the blindfold and the noose.  It’s the reason why I use the  WORD “ignorant” to describe ourselves, even though I know how much it aggravates and annoys our false sense of pride.  It is our false pride that has to be put aside.

Just to be clear about something, I’m not speaking from a perspective of making all the ‘right’ decisions.  I know how much I resisted, unknowingly and unconsciously.   And I barely survived the process.  The way was hard and made even more difficult because it was accomplished in the face of Humanity’s collective momentum of resistance. Now the tables have turned.

And all collective “11’s” are dedicated and devoted to making the path easier on all “2’s” then it was for Us.   UNconditional Love in our hearts for ALL Humanity is our fuel.  That’s what makes an “11″, an “11″.  “2’s” only ‘love’ the “good” part of Humanity, not the “bad”.  “2’s” are limited in Understanding and Compassion for Humanity, while “11’s” are not.

As simply as know how to put it into words, a “2″ is psychologically needy and unbalanced, while an “11″ is not.  A “2″ forms relationships for what We can get out of another person or what they can do for us.  An “11″ forms relationships out of a realization and recognition of qualities of character that are Loving.   Limits in the characters of “2’s” are energetically repulsive to “11’s”.

I thought it would be helpful if I listed the character traits of “2’s” and “11’s”.  It would make it easier to discern the subtle, yet profound differences.  Below is a table.  The middle column is for “11’s”.  The outer columns are  for “2’s”.  Since all “2’s” are off balanced, in order for Universal balance to be maintained, there are always equal numbers of “2’s” off balanced, just in different extremes. That’s why the “2’s” get (2) columns, because “2’s” are polarized, there are just as many (+)’s as (-)’s.  So the columns are read as follows: overbalanced, balanced, underbalanced.

To put it another way, imagine we are all on a great big boat.  The way our world has been going, all the “2’s” are doing nothing more then rocking the boat, being lined up on either side.  “11″s are standing in the middle of the boat and calling out for every “2″ to take one giant step towards the middle of the boat.  All “2’s” that aren’t ready to take that step, are jumping ship.

Here’s the table:

*N.I.C.E:  Neurotic, Insincere, Compulsive, Emotionally dependent

“2’s” are slaves of matter, victims of it, while “11’s” are Masters of matter.  Sovereign creator power is still being accessed by all “2’s”.   It is quite simply, that “2’s” avoid and deny being responsible for individual choices and uses of Willpower. Once we cease attempts at denial, understanding what we’ve been doing to ourselves becomes clear.

While many of Us tried to use our Understanding of the Law of Attraction to create an abundant future, the Wise among us, started studying how we created our lacks in the first place.  It’s kind of like CSS (cascading style sheets).  It does no good to create a new style sheet, without changing the one that is running by default.

Hope this helps.

Get ready for some more rock n roll.

Love,

Sue Ann

Told Us so…

On this post, June 6, 2008:

http://sueannedwards.wordpress.com/2008/06/05/the-carrot-and-the-donkey/

“I withhold my support for any of the teachings.   It’s the same pile of shallow *crap* that’s been circulating the past 10 years.  A lot of chatter from and about our false egos…that’s all it is.”

My comment was directed towards James Ray’s teachings.   I used the phrase “dumbass” in my comment too.  This is the same man who is currently under investigation for conducting a “spiritual warrior” sweat lodge that resulted in 2 people dead and 17 more sent to hospitals.

Reminds me of the group in Colorado around 15 years ago.  In order to bring more light into their minds, they drilled a hole in the top of their heads the size of a quarter.

“A weekend that will truly change your life.”

At least that much was true.

I wouldn’t believe a word coming out of this man’s mouth.

$9000.00?

…

A fool and their money are soon parted.

Updated Friday October 16, 2009:

“This is the most difficult time I’ve ever faced,” Ray told a crowd of about 200 at a hotel in Marina del Rey. “I don’t know how to deal with it really.”

Noticeably LACKING in emotional skills, huh?  Nothing *wrong* with this of course.  It simply reveals a state of both emotional poverty AND spiritual poverty.

“Warrior”, indeed.   Simply the word itself conveys a state of conflict.  And just imagine…having the audacity to claim being able to ‘teach’ “Harmonic Weath”!    Everything about every idea expressed indicates a LACK of any kind of understanding or realization of the ’spiritual’ or ‘quantum’  planes of existence.   Much less living in HARMONY with those planes of existence.

One time I asked an Indian Shaman the purpose or meaning of ‘animal guides’.  He told me that these guides are necessary in order to carry us across the great void that separates the realms of spirit from the earth.

And I responded, “If I don’t imagine any void of separation then I really don’t need anyone’s or anything else’s help to access the territory at will, do I?”

ANY and ALL of our ideas based on the concept of separation and/or conflict, are of our own making, meaning Man-made and, do not express ANY Realization nor Understanding of Absolute States of Being.

Finally, all the frauds are being exposed…

Reality consists of both positive and negative.  Anytime we focus our will and our desire upon only positive, is the moment we’ve stepped into a fantasy land founded upon wiping out Reality.

And Reality always eventually shows up and wipes out the wiper.

Harmonic Wealth consists of genuine Attributes of character, expressing an Integration of the dimensions.  A Spiritual wealth will be reflected as mental wealth, which is an abundance of ideas; it will be reflected as emotional wealth, which is an abundance of intimate relationships and finally…it will be reflected as physical wealth, which is defined as the “use of” energy, not ownership and possession of it.

Anyone teaching conflict knows nothing of Harmony.

A man had just died and the Devil was giving him a tour of his options.  There’s room #1, room #2 and room #3.  They first walk into room #1.

There, the man sees naked people chained head to foot together, arms behind their backs.  The only way anyone can move is if the whole mass moves at the same time.   Food and water are in various bowls scattered all over the floor, the effects of groveling like dogs making a mess of the area surrounding each bowl.

In room #2, the man is greeted with an altogether different sight.  People are standing neck deep in shit.  They’re eating by catching bits of food in their mouths that fall from above, the same with drops of water.  Whatever they can catch is what they can have.

Now the man didn’t find either one of the rooms really to his liking.  They both looked thoroughly unpleasant.  Then he went into room #3.  The scene surprised him.

The room was filled with naked people standing knee deep in shit, all socializing as if they were at a party.  They held coffee cups and teacups, glasses filled with wine and exotic drinks.   A buffet table could be seen at one end of the room, where all sorts of goodies were available.  All looked like they were having a good time, enjoying themselves like social butterflies.

The man turned to the Devil and said, “This choice is easy.  I pick this room.”

After taking off all his clothes as was required, he joined the others in the room.  About that time he heard a whistle.  The Devil was at the door, just turning to leave, when he said:

“Back on your heads folks.  Coffee break is over.”